DID due to Medical Trauma (TW??)

Kit was back out researching again (thought we'd done with all that!) She's left a tab out of a case history from a medical journal and had also copied and highlighted a specific part of it into our private journal. Where its bold is where she thinks its particularly relevant to us


POSSIBLE TRIGGER?? MEDICAL TRAUMA AS A CAUSE OF DID (or part of it)

QUOTE

"During 4 hours of gut-wrenching therapy during the next 2 days, I learned much more about the medical experiments I had endured between the ages of 8 and 12 years, and how my alters had worked together to hide the fear and pain so that the body would remain calm and cooperative.

Now, decades later, one of the alters involved had been ready to tell her part of the story but felt no one would listen. She had chosen to make the body feel sick during a gathering with safe friends, to get attention. But when the paramedics were called, she couldn’t control the reaction it triggered.

UNQUOTE
taken from https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6907912/

the differences; ours was needed medical treatments due to condition we were born with and the ages are different. Although we have no memories of them including 2 drowning incidents, a fractured skull and childhood seizures before the age of 7.

We didn't have our neuro attack (later in the body's 30's) in front of anyone we lived alone a the time and had woke up one morning barely able to move or walk. (about 6-7 months after death of father).

Where the person states "During the 6 years before my diagnosis, as my body started falling apart with muscle weakness, brain fog, and seizure-like attacks"

Ours presented as seperate events as our 'seizure-like events' happened during the last year of university several years before the neurological symptoms came on like some kind of attack (MS was suspected at the time) brain fog, extreme fatigue, weakness, balance and co-ordination problems, also extreme muscle stiffness at first (attack happened in winter - freezing temps, ice and snow going on at the time).

Maddie always presented as a full time wheelchair user in public after this 'attack', we assumed she was stuck at a certain point (the trauma of discovering we couldn't walk anymore) but maybe there was another reason she was doing it? Maybe she was wanting someone to discover something else but didn't know what as she was unaware 'others existed'. She lived only in the 'here and now' of the medical appointment or the present time of being visited by someone.

Now we can see it wasn't just Maddie fronting for 15 years (or Thea for that matter too) others were coming out during that time too but for some reason for both Maddie and Thea they were completely unable to know this at the time and honestly believed they had the conditions they portrayed constantly when up front.

Somehow finding this document constitutes proof in our mind that 'this is possible, it has been medically documented and this could be what happened for us too' just as the case of the german woman BT showed it was medically possible for someone to have some alters that could not see and some who could and it was genuine. (although for us it was hearing not sight - 'Thea's life').

We now have to make the decision whether we want this knowledge made official (yet if ever) as unlike the person in the document we were not aware of our others at the time of our neurological attack. They knew we had autism and had been left to live alone in the community and assumed we weren't taking the thyroid medication consistently (which can also cause similar issues if left untreated) but we were taking them as instructed at the time so couldn't understand where the neuro symptoms were coming from. We assumed it was damage from the epilepsy drugs we had been put on in the past (but were no longer taking at that point).

At the time they wouldn't help us with further investigation they didn't want to 'waste money on testing us' we were obviously 'autistic, learning disabled and shouldn't have been let out of the unit in the first place' ..we got issued with a cheap wheelchair for when 'normal people' needed to take us anywhere and passed to social services to 'sort out'!

so for this reason we're a little reluctant to write to the neurologist with the proof that we know who we are and why we had those symptoms. We're not keen on visiting any hospital during a pandemic anyway the thought of catching covid and ending up in ICU terrifies us! (having to be touched constantly and everyone's wearing PPE so you get no warning, can't see what anyone's saying) we suspect it would trigger another major shutdown and we have to ask ourselves do we really want to risk that after we've made so much progress over the last years?

I'd also like to ask..if this was you..and your reason for having DID and you were finding out now in your 50's after having no awareness at the time of past 'medical events'... would you pursue the diagnosis or just make a new life for yourself as you understand yourself now and can blame any inconsistencies on the menopause? (found several cases in menopause groups/forums of non-DID, non-autistic women who feel they are a 'a different person' just down to the menopause).

Some of the neuro issues are gone (we never updated anyone) but the body does have arthritis now so we do still get pain, stiffness,brain fog etc ...just not for the reason they have documented...does it matter?


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