Maybe Tw possible eating disorder

I think I may be bulimic. This is not a new behavior. I used to eat then spit it out. Make myself throw up. Still do that sometimes. Over eat etc. I dont know where that comes from. It doesnt seem to be about my weight. I am self conscious about my weight but I dont think I'm fat I'm going to go throw up. I just like throwing up. Something about it makes me feel better but I dont know exactly what. My old dentist asked me if I was bulimic from the erosion on my teeth. I said no. I'm wondering if I should mention this to my T or let it go.

When I have been severely stressed, depressed or triggered I have been unable to swallow food. I chew it can't bring myself to swallow it and spit it out. I looked it up once, read about it. It's a control thing and usually caused by SA. - check that, do your own research but that's what I found. When I first became unwell 20 years ago I didn't eat properly for 6 months because of this and lost alot of weight so now I make sure I eat. If it starts to happen I eat while watching TV, something I don't usually do, because the TV creates a distraction from what I'm eating and I don't notice I'm eating so much.

Thanks, Sarandipity

Rive wrote:I'm wondering if I should mention this to my T or let it go.

For me anytime the above thought goes through my head. I err on the side of sharing what is exactly going on with T. She needs as full of a picture as we can give her to help us properly. Plus, if I don't tell I will obsess of why I didn't tell her.

Thanks, hibodhi