by Sarandipity » Fri Sep 20, 2019 8:28 pm
I'm probably a bit different from quite a few people here because I saw the toilet as a safe haven. I spent about 4 hours a day locked in the toilet until I left home not including actually using the toilet or bathing etc.
It was before phones so right up until I left home I would play with all the bottles in the toilet, name them, they had back town in the bath and a village on the window ledge. I'd also read in there books my father would leave. Body language books, motivational books, sales books. I'd clean the bathroom while I was in there which quelled my mother shouting at me and I loved it in there. It was my safest place.
Even after my father broke the lock because by then I was about 14-15 and had enough force to hold the door shut with my legs and body wedged between me and the door when he was trying to attack me. So I love the bathroom. I still hide in my downstairs toilet sometimes when I just want to feel peaceful or safe because life's getting a bit much.
**Possible TW mention of devil and running away***
I don't think I have any issues around toilets at all other than I used to imagine I was playing cards with the devil in there - I do not know where that came from but when I read about Muslims believing Jinn live in toilets it creeped me out a bit. In a sense though it's a sort of metaphor. I was playing cards with the devil every time I decided to barracade myself in there instead of running out the house. I did try to run out the house a few times but I never made it. I'd get caught at the window or not quite get to open the door because they'd catch me but the bathroom was upstairs so I guess I could run faster up the stairs than they could and get in there and shut the door before they caught me. I slept in the bath (empty) a few times as a child. It's too uncomfortable as you get older to manage to sleep in. **End TW**
Basically I love toilets and bathrooms lol
Monte Carlo or Bust
Rose and Patrick
Batcho and Fortune (twins), Paul and Lilly,
No-one and Peter, Beth and Karen, Mandy and Mouse plus a seperate system of fragments including: rabit and others.