Visualisation to combine parts?

I have worked out that I lived internally and the other "main host" for want of a better word was out here.

After hospital and the police phone calls we swapped places. I had list of alters but I've seen these usual alters for only brief moments. The alters I've seen have been mostly Paul and these two teenage girls.

I realised the "usual me" had gone internal. I meditated to try to get home and I saw her there in my home (internal).

I was thinking, it's a theory and I wondered what others thought about it:

This disorder was created by experiencing trauma. The trauma meant the personality was left divided with fragments holding severe trauma and the personalities keeping eachother company in an extremely lonely emotionally and psychologically abusive environment. The brain created these to cope...

Sort of like meditation. Sort of like when I was a child and I would change the endings of films in my mind so extremely that I would believe the film ended how I visualised it and not how it actually ended.

The "usual me" is very good at managing money, is anxiety motivated to be "normal" and hold down a job and generally live how society expects, has massive expectations on herself as a parent, wants all her ducks in a row - is a good way to put it. I, on the other hand am quite happy to relax with a "what will be will be" attitude. The "usual me" showed up this morning because of some money thing that didn't register with me at all yesterday, sorted it out as best she could. We spoke very briefly before we swapped back about how it would be good if we could combine - we'd be on top of life stuff but much more relaxed if we combined.

I thought perhaps it's possible through visualisation. I can reach her inside in my house and clearly she can come out if something financial needs attention but to be either completely laid back or severely uptight is not ideal. We need one of us internally though, we both felt, so I wanted to try to exist where we can simultaneously be internal and fronting and combined in person because how we both are is useful in life.

Do you think this is possible through visualisation? Has anyone managed anything like this and if so do you have any tips?

Obsidian

Ive never heard that integration happens like that. Ive been diagnosed DID for about a year now. Im in a DID group in real life and none that are integrating said anything about meditating is integration. But my therapist has a great library of books in her office that we are able to look at and theres a workbook about IFS. it talks about how parts are different than DID alters, how to work with parts, that workbook has meditations. my therapist said its part of IFS to do a meditation to start each IFS therapy session. if you have parts and alters maybe this will help you. the workbook is called Self Therapy Workbook, An Exercise Book for the IFS Process by Bonnie J. Weiss, LCSW. We are trying it together to see if it will work with my alters too, Not having much luck yet with my alters but it is helping me to identify my not DID parts.