TW ABUSE BY FOO

This morning I feel nostalgic, I don't want to think or feel badly about my parents. I don't want to go to the police with flashbacks, even though I probably won't have a choice because a part of me will just do it. But I feel these sad, nostalgic feelings. I try to think of something nice about them but it all looks grey. It's a horrible feeling. Then there's the self talk that starts to tell me "maybe I'm wrong" but it's the nostalgia, the not wanting to see my parents hurting or suffering. It's horrible.