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Postby John21 » Wed Aug 22, 2007 7:04 am

the memory loss is getting interesting now. im losing big ole memories and then same day remembering them. for example i was at work today, and suddenly realized i have no recollection of the previous part of the day, no memory of waking up and going to work, it was like suddenly i was made concious of where i was...kinda lost and i was confused at first. then right towards the end of the day suddenly it all came rushing back to me, and i remembered each detail of waking up, kittens pummeling me to and from the shower, the cheerios for breakfast and drinking OJ from the carton, the traffic jam on the way...EVERYTHING every tiny detail suddenly hit me at once.


its like theres a lightswitch on the part of our brain that controls memories and a 4 year old somehow snuck in there and is playing with the switch lol. suprisingly im coping with the confusion just fine.


kinda funny to think that if i were to wake up naked next to a girl in bed ive never met before and an angry boyfriend storms in ready to whoop my ass....i wouldnt be any more suprised than any other day, just cause im so used to not knowing whats going on lol
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Postby Mr. Bates » Thu Aug 23, 2007 1:41 am

Yep, glad I don't have blackouts.

It'd be funnier if she's like "I love you, John" and you're like "I love you too?" "Say my name, John, I love it when you say my name" ".... ummm, Kim?" "WHAT THE ###$, JOHN! YOU TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME AND YOU ALREADY FORGOT MY NAME! *Storms off naked and crying*" Hear C in the backround "Who the ###$ was that?" "I have no idea O_o"
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Postby John21 » Thu Aug 23, 2007 4:52 am

that fateful night i was known as bernardo rodriguezzzzzzzzzzz heavy rolling on the Rs
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Postby lalalark2 » Thu Aug 23, 2007 4:47 pm

LOL
THAT WAS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN????!!!!
:lol:



I hate blackouts too.
Most of the time I come to and Eliza is like "so how was your day" and I say "I have no ######6 clue!"
"But most of the time I just think, thatI'mlluckyIdon'thaveallthepowerintheworldsoIcan'###$!"
-Kate Nash
~Lark~
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Postby Dimensional » Mon Aug 27, 2007 7:20 am

Although the black-outs aren't fun at all, having the information of what happened rush back to you so fast and so full of the tiniest details can be unsettling too.. not to mention it drains energy for some reason, at least it's done so with me whenever that happened. Hope you're managing and you're okay!
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Postby John21 » Mon Aug 27, 2007 3:32 pm

<3 lark.


yeah dimensional, it is kinda draining when it comes rushing back. its like when its rushing back, im getting overwhelmed and its more like a rush. but soon after im almost panting and looking around thinking "i need a nap".

we are managing just fine with it, C realllllly isnt the best though, he just automatically assumes however we got there was by the closest persons evil intentions so he is just hostile, jack and i keep him inside while either i or jack reasons with the situation and figures out simple things like

where am i? how did i get here? and where are my pants? ;p
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Postby BENNY » Tue Aug 28, 2007 1:41 am

i hate it, not remembering screws up my whole day. it makes it almost impossible to function at all. i hate it when someone asks me what i did today. i don't know, i feel like an idiot! i hate popping in, in the middle of a coversation, and have to pretend i know what the hell they are talking about, without insulting them.

while on vacation, they mentioned a movie we watched last spring, when they spent their vacation with us. everyone started talking about it, and i couldn't remember it at all. i know i was there. when they asked me don't you remember it? i just said, oh huh ya. who wants to explain the truth?

stuff like that happens all the time. i don't really see how i could ever take care of myself, and that really scares me. i've never been able to keep a job, and stay confused most the time. my husband thinks i should apply for disability. i'd probrably qualify, but don't you have to have worked and payed in social security, in order to collect it? besides it makes me feel ashamed of myself, not being able to funtion better. i want to get better. do you think i will ever be able to learn how to function? what if something happens to my husband? i know he worries about it too. it really hurts a lot. i can't understand why i haven't been able to over come this. i'm not stupid. i'm just very confused. does it ever get better? is there anything i can do that will help? i've been wanting to admit this but i've been too ashamed.

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