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Examining my System

Postby Rive » Sat Jun 08, 2019 5:33 pm

I dont really feel I know that much about my alters. Name, age etc. Yes I said they have names but I felt that was forced and I like to believe what I have evidence for. I know that I have a sexual part. I also know I have a evil part. What is the correct name for evil parts? Ones that like others pain? Or ones that say they are going to hurt me and show flashes of that? What are the correct yerms? Would it technically be an alter if they dont act just some me and say ways they want to hurt me? I also am not 100% I have littles and I have know idea really who the thoughts come from really. Just they are there. Is it uncommon in DID to not know anyone of your alters names but they are alters because they do behave differently than me. Also what would a homicidal alter technical name be and is it an alter if they have never harmed?
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Re: Examining my System

Postby Baldanders » Sat Jun 08, 2019 9:54 pm

I don’t know a lot about my alters either, but we’ve been assured that’s normal. It’s frustrating and confusing, but all we can really do is invite each other to reach out and wait to see if they do. Our journal helps to an extent.
Why wouldn't they be an alter?
I’ve heard of scary alters being called persecutors, but you can use whatever term you wish for them. I would recommend not calling them “evil” though. Alters are there for a reason and you do have to live with each other whether you want to right now or not. As far as I can tell based on resources we’re found, approaching them with that in mind generally works a lot better than deciding that they’re just evil.
As an example, my alters didn’t understand why I was hurting the system until they approached me with a desire to understand and help. We made an agreement where I work on not hurting myself and the system and they help me however they can. Now they know that I deal with a lot of traumatic memories and the emotions that come with them and that I’m trying to protect us. I’ve made a lot of progress since then that I wouldn’t have made without their support.

Disclaimer: I am not a professional or expert. I just do a lot of research. I also a little out of it.
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Re: Examining my System

Postby Rive » Sun Jun 09, 2019 12:11 am

I was wondering mainly about the homicidal alter. If I have never acted on those wuld it even be an alter. Dont they have to take action to be an alter. Its not OCD because it just feels different than OCD. I dont know how to explain. Also with the one that sends me flashes of harm coming to my body or say they want to harm me. They have never acted. So if they are not really taking control of my body in actiins how are they alters?
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Re: Examining my System

Postby Baldanders » Sun Jun 09, 2019 12:24 am

I don't understand the question. How are they not alters? I mean, I'm just assuming they are because that's what you've been calling them.
Some alters stay inside. Also, just because an alter doesn't do something you think they should be doing, doesn't mean they're not an alter. It just means you don't know the whole story.
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Re: Examining my System

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Sun Jun 09, 2019 2:42 am

Some alters never front or “take control.” If you notice or feel any kind of communication—thoughts, feelings, impulses, etc that don’t completely feel like you, then they are coming from a part. It might not always be a fully elaborated part, but they are still dissociated because they don’t feel like you.
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Re: Examining my System

Postby Rive » Sun Jun 09, 2019 2:51 am

Baldlanders I dont know how to explain what I meant. I am really out of it today because I have been crying for two days over some family issues. Thanks for the reply. Thanks Gang. I am still very confused on how that is not normal internal conflict. I am notsaying I am not DID. I am just saying I dont understand the difference.
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Re: Examining my System

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Sun Jun 09, 2019 3:24 am

Normal internal conflict, as far as I understand, is when all the conflicting feelings feel like your own. I have said this several times to you, with examples, and I don't want to repeat the same thing again. You're having impulses, thoughts, feelings, etc, that don't feel like YOU--they are wanting you to do things or say things that you DON'T WANT to do or say. That is NOT internal conflict the way a singleton has it. You can go back and look at ALL the other posts I wrote to you about this.
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Re: Examining my System

Postby Rive » Sun Jun 09, 2019 3:33 am

Ok thanks. I will copy and paste this to my notes for quick reference.
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