when i am a void...

That feeling that i get-to after too many hors at my retail job. 10 hours is way too long. 8, we can cobble together a reasonable outside-face of normalcy; enough to be one of the quirky yet liked coworkers there. after that... in connection with aggrevated back pain (which will be looked into soon,) it's just... i fear losing-face with people if they asm me questions and i have no idea of what they just said... when asked about events that took place last week it's like i have to go into a mental-image calender image of the month, think of what times i was at work, and narrow it down from there. with enough still, quiet time though, we are on the same page all; we can answer detailed questions about such. Why/if only daily-life gave time for quiet time more.

Hi I see you havent got any replys yet. Sometimes when that happens with me I get anxious. Its hard to deal on your own sometimes. Is it possible to get a more laid back job? Maybe a desk job of some sort not dealing with people. I work at the group home I live in. I dont get much for doing it but its better than sitting in my room. I work at the front desk and sometimes I have all this chatter in my head and I have to deal with people and Im like AAHHH i need to go to my room to escape for a couple of minutes. Or is it possible to get on disability and just volunteer? Luckily I dont switch much. I cant imagine doing retail and switching. That would be tough.