I dont know where else to put this ****Very triggering*****

*********TW( mention of sexualization and SA*******



So I was curious about this and please forgive me for posting so much. Like I said I dont remember much before 8 but at 8 and possibly before I had a longing for a nuturing mother figure. So I would get very attached to teachers, counselors, sunday school teachers, etc. I noticed though that I was not only attached to them but attracted to them as well (sexually) females only. This has never gone away. I dont understand why at such a young age would I only be sexually attracted to nuturing caregivers. So not only is it hard to be therapy and wsnting them to be my mom but also being sexually attracted to them. It is only with pretty females by the way. So my therapist did a major no no and said she speculates that my mother was my sexual abuser and it could be that she did something as simple as caressed me sexually or something but she thinks thats why I linked the two together. What are your thoughts? Btw I am bi-sexual but mainly attracted to females *****End Trigger***

It's possible.
SA in general makes it more likelyto mix up care and love.
This is hard and painful to deal with.
Wishing you strength and respite!

Thank you