Ponyta: Thread for my other Personalities (Insiders)

by **Ponyta** » Tue Aug 13, 2019 3:58 am

TeddyBear the helper wrote:
Ponyta wrote: we almost gained the entire 30 pounds back. Not only are we still depressed, but now we feel even more miserable do to the health problems associated with that. To make matters worse, none of us feel like exercising. We want to, but the motivation to actually get up and do it, isn't there.

Dont worry, you lost that weight once and you can do it again when everyone feels better again.. Its hard to get motivation when there is sadness and depression around. But they will be better with some more TLC, and then when they are better, you can do whatever is necessary to loose weight again.

Thank you!

I (Weirdo) picked a slightly different color than my own. I did so- because I'm not the only one writing this. A few of us are.

We are an absolute mess inside lately. We are having issues talking to our T all of a sudden. A lot of us want to talk- but someone is blocking us. Now I just found out today that we were wrong about our first assumption. We thought our host was the one preventing us to talk. It looked like it was her. Our host claims she was framed. It was evident today that she was telling the truth. Even she was blocked. So someone is doing this. We're not sure who at this point. I have my suspicions- but I don't want to wrongly accuse someone. I feel bad accusing our host. The only reason I did- was because it looked like her. Now we do have multiple shape-shifters residing in our system- it's possible it was one of them. There is another theory we have however. Is it possible that another "split" off of her? I'm only asking this because there are seven who already did. They used to be "attached"- despite already being there. Maybe we somehow "overlooked" someone? We're very confused lately.

Our host keeps losing time. Our switches are somewhat chaotic (happening a lot). One of the troublemakers messed with us today (he doesn't like us). He managed to pull me aside- as well as our host. We managed to get control back- but it really threw our mind for a loop. Our host was so nauseous from that- she literally threw up all over our body. Although I'm not sure if that is the main reason why she threw up or not.

Possible trigger warning
mention of drunk "personality"

Jack was getting better- but since the news about our dad- he's much, much worse. He is hanging out at the bar (inner world only- thankfully) for longer than ever. He is throwing up A LOT! He's a mess. I can't even talk to him- none of us can. He's too drunk to even know what we're saying to him.

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We don't know what to do. We are stuck right now. No matter if we write (what we want to say)- or try to speak it- we are blocked by someone. It's a wonder we're able to type this right now- based on what's been happening lately.

Honestly- I (Weirdo) didn't think it would be easy to block me. That's scary to me. I thought I was also a gatekeeper. Maybe I was wrong. I do know a lot of "new" ones (new to our host) is showing up lately. Maybe that's throwing things out of wack? I do know our host is very upset about the inner chaos. She wants to help us- but that seems very hard at the moment. There's just too many problems lately.

-Weirdo (and a few others)

by **TheGangsAllHere** » Tue Aug 13, 2019 10:06 am

I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. I hope they start to improve.

by **Ponyta** » Fri Aug 16, 2019 4:16 am

TheGangsAllHere wrote:I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. I hope they start to improve.

Thank you! Your kind words are greatly appreciated.

by **Ponyta** » Tue Aug 20, 2019 3:18 pm

I wish I could say things improved- but they didn't yet. There's chaos in our inner world. All of the residents (from the shadow world) came to ours. They had to evacuate due to something happening in their world. It's just one horrible mess. There are so many fights between each other- like for example- Gabe and Shadow Gabe. There's really bad trust issues on both sides- not to mention hate. We're trying our best to keep them separated right now. We need to take things step by step slowly- it seems. There's just so many problems right now. At least our host seems calm at the moment. That's good. She's spending a lot of time in our world however. I'm "out" the most lately. I do have a feeling of hope- despite everything however. I think that's what she feels.

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