*tw* inpatient hospital after overdose

I am currently in the hospital on a medical unit after one of my alters decided enough was enough and tried to kill all of us. She took all of the remaining Doxepin, 26 of 75 mg. tablets, which is more than twice the lethal amount. I don’t remember much because my case manager called the police and ambulance to my apartment. I remember arriving to the hospital and then sitting on one of the emergency room carts. The next thing I know it is the next morning and I am intubated. I didn’t even know how I got there. The doctor came in and said that they were losing me quickly and if I had come any later I probably wouldn’t have survived.

Now I get to my question. This alter, Sarah, my therapist says is one that holds the most abuse memories. It is also the one that does the most harm to the body. I am just starting to learn about some of my alters,
And this one really scares me. Usually I can control whether one fronts or not, but with this alter if I become upset with someone, she comes out and sometimes leaves a path of destruction that is hard and sometimes impossible to repair. One instance of that is when she told someone at a crisis line that she wanted a nurse to get stabbed; this got reported to the doctors office that I was going to bring a steak knife to stab the nurse. I would never do this. Now everyone is afraid at the clinic and the clinic wants my psychiatrist to fire me; I am hoping that when she reconsiders everything, which she said she would do, I can still see her if I bring someone with me to appointments. Looking over my life, I can now see that when something drastically unusual for me, it was Sarah. My therapist says that she became so strong because she was left unchecked for so long and that I need to learn to overpower her to keep her from causing more destruction, but I am unsure how. Anyone have any suggestions?

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