Pondering possibilty of DID

Where is the line between dissociate amnesia and dissociate identity disorder.. When you are not co-conscious ..

I'm still building my list of odd happenings that i will stop making excuses for... as follows...
* Had a mental blow out blacked out Hard for atleast2-3 months. Still bringing pieces back.
* Blacked out on the plane, was like i could feel the black out coming in.. then lead to in-out dissociate amnesia.
* Started noticing i hear things like " Shes getting her cardio in", " Shes only doing that because of her anxiety", "Why is she still doing that?"
* recently was calm and relaxed but felt this sadness that didnt feel like it was mine.. it was sadness that came from far away .. i felt like i was coddling a child who was sad. (That makes no sense..)
* since i can remember i have dissociated the first time i noticed something was off when i was like 7 and i "came back" my family and i were walking to do something i had no idea why or how i ended up there.. but everyone was acting normal, just when i started playing i blacked out again.. and i know i could feel something was happening just before the black out.
* where was a time when i heard two voices talking to each other about me when i was screaming at them to shut up and i started smashing my head into the wall.. i said i wont stop until they shut up or im brain dead.. One was really mad and said he would never return, the other lady silently left.
*One time i said something and moments later was told i said it, no recollection.. They thought i was lying..

Sometimes i think all these are unrelated and something else, or simply a dissociate issue.. but i dont know reality to be anything other then this, its normally foggy and grey so i dont even notice if there is a black out until much later.
I dont have anyone tell me that i act differently.. though i do keep to myself.. i dont have any baby talk, or unknown items of clothing,ect.

Anyways, Thanks Guys! Take care.

There isn't really a line between amnesia and DID. Amnesia is typically a system of DID but can also be of other things. It sounds like you could have DID. I'd advise trying to find a T with experience dealing with DID.

Oleander000 wrote:I'm still building my list of odd happenings that i will stop making excuses for...

There are some of us with official diagnoses of DID or OSDD who still try to make excuses for all kinds of "odd happenings." Denial is huge with dissociative disorders because it's a dissociative coping mechanism.

Oleander000 wrote:I dont have anyone tell me that i act differently.. though i do keep to myself.. i dont have any baby talk, or unknown items of clothing,ect.

You don't need to have any of those to have DID.

Hi! Welcome back.

Sounds to me like DID. You have a very typical inventory of lost time episodes and other symptoms. Everyone who has DID has dissociative amnesia plus other symptoms. Other symptoms such as:

Oleander000 wrote:i heard two voices talking to each other about me when i was screaming at them to shut up and i started smashing my head into the wall.. i said i wont stop until they shut up or im brain dead.. One was really mad and said he would never return, the other lady silently left.

That you can feel the blackouts start to come on means you are on your way to co-consciousness.

Repeating what I said on your previous thread earlier this year, time spent asking us these questions is actually you delaying your getting the appropriate professional evaluation.