Pretty hard to deny right now; whole life is screwed up

I have to be vague here, I'm sorry. But, I looked for the "you know you're DID when" thread, but couldn't find it, and figured that posting there might not be so helpful anyway.

Anyway, first off, I was under the influence of alcohol, but I'm pretty sure I wasn't drunk. And this has been a theme in similar episodes throughout my life. I've been drunk before. I've been really really drunk. Acting stupid, throwing up, passing out drunk. This was different. I was tipsy, but I was fine. And then I found myself in a strange, confusing, threatening situation. And then it was like something took over, but I was still watching. What took over completely dominated the situation and neutralized the threat. And then I blacked out. When I came to, I was in a different city, being arrested on a felony charge that to me made no sense, and I wasn't drunk at all. I have bits and pieces of my memory from that night. We were trying to flee the country, made some horrible mistakes, and everything went horribly wrong.

Not sure what else to say here.

The night before, I had a dream about my dad telling to be careful not to let my alters out. About a week prior, I had a terrible migraine, complete with the ocular aura, and then felt like I was going insane as I was bombarded for hours by hundreds of thoughts and emotions that I swear weren't mine; they were just there.

I don't know if there's a point to this. I feel like the only logical choice I have left is to kill myself, but I'll have to deal with all this #######4 that I created first, and that seems daunting, hopeless.

I guess I'm just hoping that maybe, hopefully, somebody could relate, and maybe give me some advice. Or at least tell me what this sounds like to you, if not DID.

Thanks.

Hey,

Sorry to hear you're struggling. I don't really have advice to give, except maybe to focus on the basics for a while? Eating, sleeping, exercize?

What happened sounds a little bit like it could be dissociative fugue, to me, at least. (And I'm not a specialist).

Hang in there..get some professional help so deal with all of it -how to cope with legal issues and the possible dissociation. I’ve never woken up in another city but I have woken up doing things I wouldn’t normally do .

Hi,

That all sounds really hard. I'm glad you are figuring it out though. It's important that you take care of yourself and try to stay alive. I hope you have a T you can talk to. That really helps.

Iain