Had a needed convo and everyone splot

I had a convo about us having kids. I dont want to have them anymore due to DID and...splitting and now I feel weird and not like myself and I was upset because I had such a moment of clearity and I felt so good but now im scattered and shattered all over the damn place and I feel not like mysef + sick.


I just want stability but im not getting that l

Early on stability can be one of things people strive for, I totally understand. In general, I don't think it is anything to be ashamed of.