Why is life a trip?

Not sure what this post will look like by the time I press submitt so...trigger warning

Ok so I cannot stop tripping lately (after thinking I was better for a while which is wierd because if anything I have been getting worse). Now when I say tripping I dont mean the sense of being intoxicated (though pot is my crutch) but rather use trip to describe all sorts of feelings and thoughts that are associated with DID (at least for us), and of course a lot of these thoughts I do not recall after the fact... I mean I can go from having a convo about sports, to food, to the soul, to coming up with an entire business 1 night (again regardless if sober or intoxicated) and then wake up next morning with almost no recollection of these conversations.

Anyway, lately I am tripping at work making mistakes because I am tripping too much in general and cannot get myself grounded. Doesnt help I trip too much on public transit given that I work across the world (wait across the world would be closer haha)

Honestly life is too much of a trip for me to handle at some points; I wish I could be more normal but I trip more than I can even explain or truely tell someone (my best friend even said I am the biggest trip he knows the other day)

This is my first post here, because I very much relate. More recently too, as well.

Sounds like everyone is trying to make themselves known/front, kinda all at the same time. Public transit (and driving ourselves) is a /huge/ crossover time for us as well. Sundays I drive 3 hours total to work and back, and the whole day becomes a mess of wants/needs/ideas/activities/etc to the point where we're just exhausted and dizzy and mentally drained, and sleep 12 hours to recover.

Monday-Friday work can also cause a lot of crossover too, since we have to keep up certain appearances for the outside world, which involves cooperation from a few different people.

Things I've learned from the SO and his therapist:
Sometimes you have to let stuff like this happen, when the mind needs to wander it needs to wander. Either there is something important going on everyone is invested in and needs to be solved, or someone new is hidden among that mess of thoughts. See if there's a reason for all this crossover.

But sometimes it needs to just be one person. Sometimes you have to really work to settle, some cases not so much. For us, there's some topics (admittedly; Star Wars, or a certain Jazz tune, or real life person) that really gets someone so excited to think about they get the front solo almost without effort. You just have to find out what those things are.


Final note, because I read another post of your's on here- pot has been our #1 source of co-conscious/crossover to the point where we're just /always/ spinning through vertigo until we pass out. It opens up a LOT of barriers between people for the SO too. If you're abstaining right now then it may be a good idea, if not- I might suggest it until you can more easily ground a single person, or even just a duo to the front.

MeraNaamKaeeHai wrote:This is my first post here, because I very much relate. More recently too, as well.

Sounds like everyone is trying to make themselves known/front, kinda all at the same time. Public transit (and driving ourselves) is a /huge/ crossover time for us as well. Sundays I drive 3 hours total to work and back, and the whole day becomes a mess of wants/needs/ideas/activities/etc to the point where we're just exhausted and dizzy and mentally drained, and sleep 12 hours to recover.

Monday-Friday work can also cause a lot of crossover too, since we have to keep up certain appearances for the outside world, which involves cooperation from a few different people.

Things I've learned from the SO and his therapist:
Sometimes you have to let stuff like this happen, when the mind needs to wander it needs to wander. Either there is something important going on everyone is invested in and needs to be solved, or someone new is hidden among that mess of thoughts. See if there's a reason for all this crossover.

But sometimes it needs to just be one person. Sometimes you have to really work to settle, some cases not so much. For us, there's some topics (admittedly; Star Wars, or a certain Jazz tune, or real life person) that really gets someone so excited to think about they get the front solo almost without effort. You just have to find out what those things are.


Final note, because I read another post of your's on here- pot has been our #1 source of co-conscious/crossover to the point where we're just /always/ spinning through vertigo until we pass out. It opens up a LOT of barriers between people for the SO too. If you're abstaining right now then it may be a good idea, if not- I might suggest it until you can more easily ground a single person, or even just a duo to the front.

Hi, thanks for taking the time for detailed eply and sorry for the late repsone. I read it the other day (not sure when and I refuse to look at dates of any post), and I've been meaning to reply but jave just been so busy and trippin way to much.

Anyway I will for sure read again in the coming days and actually reply specifically to what you said (cause there seems to be a lot of good content)