Dormant Alters? - Help Please

Hey everyone, long time no talk. It's been about two years since I became an active member here, I'm 19 now and I have a lot to talk about but I'll save the updates for another post (I'll still be adding in a little bit of updated information in this post though).

I wanted to ask - how do I contact my alters? They've been nearly completely dormant for a long time now.

This is probably because I was again forced to go back to the abusive environment I grew up in; I had to move back in with my abuser (my biological mother) because my dad had pretty much kicked me out for not working (due to my disabilities, mental and physical) and not going to school due to executive dysfunction. From what I can recall (sorry super out of it atm) I moved back in with S and after a lot of blacked out memory for the first little bit living with her I stopped switching and my amnesia in general stuck around but I wasn't having nearly as many alters communicating with me and the majority of them (minus my protector Tanner) completely seemed to disappear.

Anyways long story short I'm (FINALLY YAY!!) living in my own apartment and am in treatment for my mental health issues (minus DID - of course *dramatic sigh* lol) and have yet to be diagnosed with DID but I am doing re-testing and was told that there's a chance the diagnostic tools could diagnose a dissociative disorder.

I've been trying to contact my alters and have had pretty much no luck, just headaches, bad dissociation and numbness. Is there anything I can do to get them back? Admittedly I feel as though I need them around, I can't always live life on my own, I'm lonely/sad and I could use the self-validation right about now (because of course my OCD obsessions/intrusive thoughts about faking are spiking atm).

Thanks,
the Host missing my friends (haha there's always enough room in this body for them tbh)

Hi and welcome back

Mine went inside to take a break for a while, they came out when they were ready, to protect me from a percieved threat, or actual threat, I still haven't figured out (a bad therapist that was forcing me to talk about my multiplicity).

It's possible that they're influencing but not actively doing anything? At least, it's what happened to me.

is there any way of contacting them that has worked well in the past?
we would start by leaving them messages that you moved and are save now.

Minnii wrote:Hi and welcome back

Mine went inside to take a break for a while, they came out when they were ready, to protect me from a percieved threat, or actual threat, I still haven't figured out (a bad therapist that was forcing me to talk about my multiplicity).

It's possible that they're influencing but not actively doing anything? At least, it's what happened to me.

Yeah that's definitely a strong possibility, thank you for your reply and I hope you figure that out

Host

-- Fri Oct 13, 2017 12:48 am --

birdsong87 wrote:is there any way of contacting them that has worked well in the past?
we would start by leaving them messages that you moved and are save now.

I've tried writing to them and I end up feeling extremely dissociated and almost-but-not-quite-entirely co-conscious with someone/some of them, but they have yet to write back to me like they used to but yeah I'll try again when I get the chance because I really want them back

Thank you for replying, take care

Host