I’m Just Screaming [TW Just in case]

Long story short, T doesn’t think we’re even multiple “because you remember transitions” but OSDD-1b???? Someone please explain to me how not having amnesia excludes us from a diagnosis of OSDD-1b.

Anyways, that’s not why I’m here, although it led me here. Where would experiences of acting- obviously ones I mean are not forethought, predetermined, conscious, and deliberate- fit with regard to passive influence and switching? Let me see if I can explain this from the viewpoint of before I knew any of this applied to me:

Just like, for no reason, I would find myself “acting”. And not even for a long time, maybe long enough to Do A Thing or Say A Thing or whatever. Like maybe Alter Bob vacuums the living room. “Good job”, I would say to myself, “A+ acting, where is my Oscar”. (Jesus it looks even more ridiculous when I put it that way. XD) I literally, seriously thought about going into acting because of this because *kisses fingers* I thought I was just the best darned actor out there. Look how easily I get into character! I can do it without even trying! WITHOUT EVEN MEANING TO?!?!!!?! (I never questioned this because... well, you know why, don’t you? XD Okay, the amount of questions I SHOULD have asked myself are becoming apparent. LOL Who is Bob? Why am I acting like Bob? Why do I need to do that to vacuum? Why would I act like Bob vacuuming a floor anyways? How is that tangentially different from anyone else vacuuming the floor? That sort of thing is not outwardly apparent to others???)

But seriously, just imagine that for a moment:

Casting director: Okay, show us what you’ve got.

Me/Bob: *whips out a vacuum* tada

Casting: ??? What even-

Me: No, don’t thank me, just deliver the script and the check to my trailer *winks with fingergun*

The only reason I caught on to this was years ago when I was first figuring this out, I stumbled on a post here that said “I felt like I was acting” aND IT CLICKED INTO PLACE

That was about switching IIRC but considering I’m using this for ammo, I need all the help we can get.

PS: No one told her (to my knowledge) that we remember switching??? We’re not even sure we switch all that much now??? But we might also be not remembering??? I don’t know, but I know she almost caused a dissociative meltdown with this bull. Yes we’re changing therapists. i yELL WITH mAD

PPS: :O That reminded me of that one time in elementary school when we were doing something with Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairies and me and my friend (among other kids) were spiders for some reason and I blacked tf out on stage but considering no one noticed wE SWITCHED ON STAGE IN FRONT OF HUNDREDS OF WITNESSES Y’ALL and apparently my alter knew the dance and performed it since LITERALLY NO ONE NOTICED A DIFFERENCE

Oooooooh I’m glad I remembered that, that means blackouts continued up into 5th grade! I was 10 tf years old when that happened because it was towards the end of the year but before my birthday! (I probably should not be excited about this but EXCITE)