Not sure what to title this.

Been losing time lately. In my last therapy session is was getting so bad that my T noticed it, and also noticed that I was startled / getting anxiety from the disorientation. She went over what was talked about in my absence. Since she caught it, I've come to realize that the disoriented feelings I get on a regular basis, are actually me coming back. I don't really have the words to describe it right now. Well referring to a lot of things. It also strikes me how covert it must really be. Or maybe my quirkiness over the years has been more than me being quirky. Not really sure anymore. Most of the time these days I feel like I'm watching myself on a weird autopilot. Nothing feels real most of the time. I wake up but I'm still dreaming. DID takes up too much in several perspectives. Everything feels pointless and impossible. Career. Friends. Dating. Hobbies. Even having an opinion. But we're okay. Just floating through this.

I can tell that one of us grew attached to this place and to several of you here. It's kind of hard to communicate right now, but I felt that I should make a post. Hope everyone is doing okay.

CopperMoon wrote:I can tell that one of us grew attached to this place and to several of you here. It's kind of hard to communicate right now, but I felt that I should make a post. Hope everyone is doing okay.

Hey Copper, you write very nice things. I'm glad some of you have grown attached to this place and to some people here. Glad to read you, and to know you're still in therapy. It sucks about the disorienting feelings, I hope things get better, and you feel more grounded.

Take care you all.

Sea

Hi. Sometimes it takes me several days to recover from therapy. And I don't remember all of it or it slowly comes back. Initially I leave session and sit in my car waiting for the disorientation to leave... I hope you get to feeling better. Xoxo