patience

Im bit struggling with patience i think. Im trying to listen to whats happening inside, write notes and all, but seem to struggle with this. I know it takes time, but it feels a bit discouraging As if I force it to much in my encouragment and invitations, it feels as an obsession, which obviously seems not healthy and i think does more harm then good.

Curiosity turning into something else, to much like an demanding something?
I often dont know where to look, inside, front etc. Communicate inside, or communicate with those out. perhaps i could ask others inside to handle one thing, and i can focus on something else? ( just came to mind, dont know why )
I keep thinking i do something wrong maybe i should give them an turn? perhaps im blocking un knowingly stuff since I became sort of more aware?

I refuse to give up on them, or on communication.
Im not even sure if i want to type this, or anything. Perhaps it is doubt/denial creeping up, i dont know.

I think I need some encouragement in it, its...different then convincing myself/ourselves it takes time and it is okay. That communication doesnt increase over night.

I just need some advice and encouragement, someone to tell me that it takes patience and time, and perhaps that others also hear it.

Personally I think there is a bit of an inclination to want to get through things. To get healing over and done with already and to be free of problems. I think it can become a bit of an unhealthy obsession from time to time- I've certainly experienced that. It is confusing to try and figure out what is going on in the system and what communication is happening and what we need to do for things to be better. Sometimes I think it can lead us to pushing ourselves too hard, which sounds like what you might be feeling you've fallen into...

It is hard sometimes to resist wanting to push for things to be better, for communication to improve etc etc You are right that it takes patience and time. What I have also found personally is that it has taken a gradual process of becoming more comfortable to look at the negative effects of things functioning as they are. From gradually looking at the negative effects, and starting to be more comfortable with them coming into my awareness, it has the effect of motivating me to want to make change and wanting me to make that change in a sustainably healthy way (i.e. not so suddenly that parts of the system freak out and push back against change).

It is a process and sometimes it can help to focus on going about the process gently and sustainably rather than pushing things too quickly. You will get there with it as you are ready. Have courage.

Hello and thank you for the encouragement and suggestions. Its good to hear from other DID people about this

I/we keep changing our writing, and deleting stuff, and starting over again in reply.
I/we agree it takes time, patience, tho patience can be hard at times. I should go more easy on it, more listening and figuring out i guess Just let them approach, leave invitation, how hard it is.
When it is "noisy"in my/our head there seem to be more easy communication going on.
Im confused at the moment but this will settle soon i guess. taking the time to listen to everyone and asking them to come forward, whoever want to come forward. letting them know its okay, tho there seem to be different approaches to different people inside. ( did i say people? yes i did )
Those times it seems so easy, when it is noisy.

there is also an urge to write notes lately.
I think I have to become more "comfortable" with them, more relaxed ( as i suspect im not always, like an sudden "response to it, which triggers some blocking in "me?" )

I will try to go more easy on me/us

Thank you ^^
Am positive about this all. proud of everyone

Edit: typo.