so....hello

I am new and in dire need of help. I am an 18 year old college freshman with five alters. My parents fear for their lives as well as mine, and I have no friends in real life because they are all scared of the kid with alters. I am trying to see a therapist, but once a week is not enough. I need someone who understands what its like to live this life to talk to.

trigger warning self harm

I was diagnosed with DID less than a year ago and am struggling. One is a 13 year old girl with a massive sex drive, and one is a gangster (its worse than that but i'll leave it at that) Cutting is a problem for me and occasional suicidal ideas. The gangster will go to evil people and try to trade me and other alters as torture toys to others who have DID and torture the host as part of the deal. He makes me cut and suicidal. He tortures me and those close to me. The girl wants my body.

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will anyone help me? or at least talk to me?

Hello to you. Welcome to the DID Forum.

Congratulations on starting college despite the heavy load of internal chaos you are dealing with right now. Do you see your current therapist through your college? If not, go to the college for additional support! Look for local support groups. A DID support group probably would be best but you may find a more general one that helps.

We do understand; many of us have problems similar to yours. Know that there are solutions; you just have to find them.

I am trying to get a therapist. I am talking with school administration today about it in fact, but a once a week thing is not going to be enough...