DID Affecting Work!

About a month ago another alter, Daisy, got us a new job. It's something that Daisy could probably be good at. But now I'm here. And I'm really worried.

We have a project that we were supposed to have done by tomorrow and there's no way it'll be done. Mira is telling me to lie about why it's not done, which is probably what I'll do. But that's not even the big problem.

I'm terrified of the people in the office. It's full of a bunch of alpha-male salesmen and I don't like them. I know I'm going to have to be in a small room with my manager and I don't want to go but I can't screw it up because we need money.

I'm really scared that I'm not going to be able to pretend to be Daisy tomorrow, or for the rest of the week. And I'm really scared to even go to the office. I don't know what to do. And I really want to cut.

Hi,

mirajay wrote:I'm terrified of the people in the office. It's full of a bunch of alpha-male salesmen and I don't like them. I know I'm going to have to be in a small room with my manager and I don't want to go but I can't screw it up because we need money.

Did you already have the meeting? Try breathing before the meeting. Do you have the possibility to reschedule the meeting? Or to have it in a bigger room? Can you go with a co-worker who can support you, like being an ally so you don't feel alone in a room with alpha-male salesmen, but accompanied. If you've watched Erin Brockovich something like calling on support "lawyers".

Have in mind that they are people, just like you, and that you have the right abilities to do the job. Try asking for Daisy's help or someone else in the system who can support you with the project. If you find yourself not knowing what to do. Slow down, breath, and ask to understand the situation better, and maybe provide a suitable answer.

mirajay wrote:I'm really scared that I'm not going to be able to pretend to be Daisy tomorrow, or for the rest of the week. And I'm really scared to even go to the office. I don't know what to do. And I really want to cut.

You can do a very good job. Most people don't notice, and if they notice, you can argue forgetfulness, or change of moods. We don't have to be perfect to do a job, we just need to be willing to think creatively, and listen to the problem, and try to come up with solutions, from your point of view, even if it's different than Daisy's.

I hope you haven't hurt yourself. You're not alone, and no project deserves you cutting yourselves.

Good Luck this week.

Sea

PS: Can you call your T to talk about why Daisy is not fronting? Or how to face this week?

Thanks for all the advice. Daisy was actually able to go to that meeting. But then we got stuck at work later than expected and I came out while we were there. It was awkward. Now I'm pretty sure I'm gonna call in sick tomorrow if I'm still out. And we already told our boss we can't work Friday. That's when we see our T again. I don't know if this job is going to work out. But we need something. Anyway, thanks for all the great advice. And no, we haven't hurt our body. I just drew red lines on my legs with a marker instead.

Hi,

I'm glad Daisy made it. Yay!!

Hopefully good days are coming. And very clever what you did with the marker instead.

Sea