Back with sadness..*Trigger Warning*

After a long while we are back. things have been fairly peaceful until today. We lost RJ. he was the first one my fiancee met. he was my older brother my hero. and he's gone. I went thru a sort of "system reset" recently and almost everyone was gone but i knew they were coming back. today they did and all was fine. RJ told me to tell my fiancee that he said hi and that he loved her and then laid down and just never woke up again. We are all devistated and hurt and angry and confused. Four the eldest of us said this has happened before and that RJ will not be back. But I'm trying my best not to belive that. We still need RJ. He can't just be gone like that. He's there for me when I'm angry or when I'm about to do something stupid. it hasn't even been a few hours and I'm already lost with out him..

*hugs* that sounds likee a horrible experience.. However, like you said, you still need him and are sad about him being gone.. Alters are born out of need, and i believe that as long as need is still there, on a conscious or subconscious level, they are not truly gone.. they're a part of the system, part of the mind... I've known someone who thought an alter was dead, permanently.. But Marvolo was able to guide her to find him again and pull him back, so to say.

I'm not sure why he went, or why Four said he wouldn't be back.. Have you asked? Are they sure? Hiki's mind tried to get rid of me a few times and I am still here.. I don't believe a part of a mind can be dead and gone just like that... Especially not if you don't want him to be. Stay strong, maybe dig around, try to find him in your mind...

yuki

Four said it's happened before with Alters I didn't even know about. Its different RJ's Different. I love and need him. My fiancee needs him too. We are a peaceful system all of us enjoy eachothers company. we're family. I am going to burry him Four said i could just make his body disapear but I can't handle that. ~hugs~ I hate every moment of this. Me and my fiancee always said out of everyone we want RJ to stay the most. Forever. Him and her were going to have there own wedding ceramony and everything.