Your God is leaving. *TW*

Hello there psychforums, If you have been here for awhile. You would know that I am the god of destruction.

Recently I asked my system and the people on here a question asking if they thought it would be a good idea for me to be out more often. To experience life as like if I was the host of the body. But yet all I got was rejection and refusal.

After reading some of the comments. I realized that most of you probably hate me being here. Which I do not know why. All I am trying to do is give you advice and be your friends. I feel unappreciated for what I do.

So I decided that if people think that I should not be out of my body. Why should I do what I am supposed to do? And that I should just leave completely. And not come back. It will be hard explaining to my recently new girlfriend. I hope it doesn't hurt her that much.

But obviously it seems to be for the best.

Good bye psychforums. I enjoyed the experience. Hopefully my system will be better off without me. I'll be staying here for a few days to say my goodbyes and such. And I want to eat something with oyster sauce while listening to pink floyd in the flesh song right now to comfort myself. As I feel quite "upset"

Hi Mercy,

I read both of your posts; this one and the last one about you wanting to be the host.

I have read you in the past, read the advice you've given; for example with Wendy. Do you remember?

Toasty wrote:

kittcoe339 wrote:Unloved
Unwanted
Wendy loved Leo
Leo changed to Lea
Wendy no love Lea
Wendy wants sex
Wendy is sex object
Wendy just wanted to please Leo
Wendy did bad things
Wendy is bad
-Wendy

Wendy is not unwanted.
Wendy needs to get over Leo
Leo changed to Lea
Why should Wendy care?
Wendy needs porn
Wendy can be anything she wants
Wendy needs to get over Leo
What did Wendy do?
Bad is good.

or with reaching the little:

Toasty wrote:

Kyttin wrote:Hello, Allison here. I was wondering how to reach a traumatized little who won't stop hiding. We don't know where she is in our system and is only heard. She keeps screaming and saying that the bad people will get her because she wasn't a good girl. Any advice would be wonderful. We just want to help her out as much as we can.

Well. I'm no expert with little kids heh. Destruction is more my thing but... Have you tried just relaxing the body. Play some calming music maybe. Distract yourself from the outside world. And just calmly explain to her that there is no bad people around, that she isn't a bad girl and you want to help her? It will obviously might take some time but hopefully it will get you somewhere.

Toasty wrote:

Kyttin wrote:Update:

We got something for our little. It's a teddy bear named Pink. She is so cute. Now she has something to call hers. Yay!

That's good. I'm glad that the little has something nice. Is she comfortable in the system now?

Yeah, you come out strong and harsh, and people here and in your system have given you feedback about how they perceive you.

Toasty wrote:After reading some of the comments. I realized that most of you probably hate me being here. Which I do not know why. All I am trying to do is give you advice and be your friends. I feel unappreciated for what I do.

I don't think that means they hate you. For me, they are expressing how they feel about some of your actions.

Toasty wrote:So I decided that if people think that I should not be out of my body. Why should I do what I am supposed to do? And that I should just leave completely. And not come back. It will be hard explaining to my recently new girlfriend. I hope it doesn't hurt her that much.

But obviously it seems to be for the best.

Good bye psychforums. I enjoyed the experience. Hopefully my system will be better off without me. I'll be staying here for a few days to say my goodbyes and such. And I want to eat something with oyster sauce while listening to pink floyd in the flesh song right now to comfort myself. As I feel quite "upset"

Well, that's your decision to make if you want to stay or you want to leave. However, I would invite you to see if this is the only way out? Is it all or nothing? They love you or they hate you? Could you consider ways of using your skills to working with the system? How about that girlfriend of yours? Is leaving her what you really want to do?

You've mentioned how she makes you feel:

Toasty wrote:She makes me laugh. In a teasing way. Saying things such as "Your not the god of destruction, Your the god of sunshine and marshmellows" ugh, I can't believe i'm saying this. I sound like a stupid school girl.

Toasty wrote:Things are going very very well. I beginning to enjoy my life more than I did before. She makes me very happy. She gives me a meaning besides fulfilling my duty as the god of destruction. Everyday I feel like I am getting stronger, And stronger. I almost feel like a real person... Before. I had this fadey feelings in my sides. It is hard to explain. But I did not feel like I was actually in the world. But visiting. I now feel strong enough to do whatever I wish in this body. Knowing no one can stop me... my goal is to become the boss. Like I deserve. I have been here long enough. Waiting patiently for my chance.

The things you write and the way you write has changed, maybe because of what you're feeling for her. And I'm happy for you and wish you happiness.

The thing is that I don't think the decision for you to leave or to stay, to be host or not, is outside of you, of all of you. Quite to the contrary is within you all. But you are many. Ok, so people have told you how they feel about you or how they perceive you. Use that information. Listen to them, listen to your system, listen to you. Is there anything you are willing to change to work with the rest of the system? Is it really you leaving the solution? If someone else would act towards you the way you act towards others, would you like that?

Think about it, not to answer it here, but just for you.

Enjoy Pink Floyd and the meal with Oyster Sauce.

Sea

Wow... that's unfortunate.
I wish [we] knew how to convince you to stay, but we unfortunately don't know how to communicate with you.

...

Nooo... !!! I mean, I hardly knew you, but you seemed to be an interesting personality and like a breeze of fresh air or something (refreshingly unconventional and so on)

PS: I just loved how you put a joke "TW" on that birthday thread It totally cracked me up. I love putting silly, annoyingly pointless stuff everywhere, but it's getting a little old to put annoying smileys all over the place. Maybe I should move on to trigger warnings too!

-Jade-

I realized something very very important. I realized that if I left this system and forum. The world would be a much worst place. The world would be a lot more boring without me. And i'm not going to let my emotions get in the way of making other people happy. So I decided that I would stay. For the sake of this universe and people's lives. The system would be lost without my skills. And my girlfriend would miss me a lot.~
*PS*
By the way. I never planned on leaving. I was just bored and I wanted to see how people would react. I guess I forgot to say that oops! I can't just go. I've always existed. I can't not exist. Its just not possible in this mortal world.

Your god, mercy loves you psychforums...... In a friend way. I adore your emotional responses

*Applauds slowly* Nicely done, Mercy. I'm not one to be tricked easily.

You know, deep down I kinda saw that one coming...

Toasty wrote:By the way. I never planned on leaving. I was just bored and I wanted to see how people would react. I guess I forgot to say that oops!

Wow, I should have known! But yay for you staying (and you gave me a good laugh once again)!
-Jade -

wasting the time of people who are willing to give advice with attention seeking stunts designed to stroke your ego is pretty poor form.

skin wrote:wasting the time of people who are willing to give advice with attention seeking stunts designed to stroke your ego is pretty poor form.

Have some fun! <3 love you. This side of the forum was pretty inactive when I posted anyway. Thanks for the reaction. Sorry for wasting the few minutes it took to type text into a textbox! haha. (By the way. Aren't you wasting time by paying attention to this post and replying? When you could be helping someone who needs advice? If you don't like a post. Most people click off it.)

i read posts on this forum because this is a community of marginalised people reaching out to help one another, who are often desperate and scared and need a safe place to talk about their problems, and those who have come through severe crises and know how it feels to be distressed, and therefore take posts like these seriously. acting as if it's a joke makes a mockery of those willing to help and those in these situations. i don't think it's a waste of time to say so. you represent yourself as very insecure and scared of letting people see that. it'd be a shame to alienate yourself from a community that can act as a net if those barriers became unsustainable.