The red pill or the blue pill

Love the topic. Don't have that much to say right now, but I'm loving it.

I was diagnosed as male to female transsexual by my first therapist. Insisting the whole time transition was NOT right for me, I switched to a cognitive psychologist who treated me for 2 more years for "gender dysphoria." I am sure she recognized early on I had DID. She knew the horror that awaited me if I started trauma recovery therapy, did everything in her power to try to help my female alter and me find a way to live as transgender expressions of a solitary self. I saw the tears in her eyes as she watched my System continue to collapse, the familiar time/memory loss, nightmares and flashbacks begin; and she understood I had to I take the "red pill."

The rabbit hole is deeper, the pain greater than anything I could have imagined...but the consolation of truth is peace.