Bad thoughts? TRIGGER WARNING

TRIGGER WARNING (SA)

I don't know why did started, but suddenly my mind started to show me pictures of myself (the body), like in "current time" (but it looked more like when the body had long hair and sorta identified as female) letting someone else sexually abuse of "me"/the body. (Weird enough, my "point of view" was from the one being the abuser, not "me", not from the body).

I was feeling pretty #######5 lately but that... Well... That's not helpful.

The thing is, I know that couldn't had happened in the last months/years, it was more like something that "should" happen. I mean, the thought attached with that picture was like "This should happen to you again".

I don't know why happened, why so suddenly, but I would thank you if you know a way to keep those thoughts at bay. (Or if you could give me an explanation? I thought maybe it was because in this month happened the abuse I had years ago, but since I barely remember it, I'm not certain).

I don't know why did started, but suddenly my mind started to show me pictures of myself (the body), like in "current time" (but it looked more like when the body had long hair and sorta identified as female) letting someone else sexually abuse of "me"/the body. (Weird enough, my "point of view" was from the one being the abuser, not "me", not from the body).

Can't exactly relate but I have had dreams/awareness/flashbacks from other points of view. Could this point of view just be thoughts of an alter who watched?

How is it going sorting through this?

Xoxo

Thinking of it as an alter's point of view... Maybe could be Hiro... Or Noah, but somehow Hiro is the one that cames to my mind.

I'm pretty much better, I hadn't have those thoughts in these days, thankfully. It's like "seasons" where I get weirdly anxious and then lots of things happens through my mind at once, and I feel losing control... But then I "came back" to "normalcy" as if nothing happened. There isn't much more that I understand about it, tho.

Thank you for you reply, Journalgirl.

Sounds like an insider is sending you nasty mind movies. The insider may not be aware you are receiving the movies; the insider may assume the movies are his (?) totally private fantasy. All of this, including the disturbing content of the mind movies, is fairly typical for DID.