new found memories trigger warning

no I wont describe them


but ever since

I can t stand my own face
my own body

I just want it dead

I can t or don t know or just

I can t deal with this

I don t know how to begin

how to understand

how to accept

I can t run
I can t selfharm
or get drunk
none of it works

I m fat

my face makes me vomit

all I want to do is die

and disappear

but I don t

I don t disappear

every morning I wake up to the same reality

and I can t
no more

Friends gone
Family tryin gbut just not gettin it and call me a fraud

no job
can t live on my own
ill

fat

I m disgusted by myself

and all I recall

and all that s in my head

I'm there with you. Memories overload this week

You are in my thoughts

*safe hugs if wanted* for both you guys. i'm sorry this week is so hard. it'll be ok. it'll take time, but things will be ok again. *fuzzy blankets and tea for everyone*