I Need Help Please....

Okay so I'm used to switching kind of by now. I still don't like it , but I can deal with it. Sometimes I feel like I have a headache and then I slowly start to drift away. Or it's sudden, but really it's different for each alter that's kind of what we came up with so I know. I have spent a lot of time talking to them trying to gain some kind of understanding of all of this.

Anyway when I thought I had gone to bed last night I wake upto find out my that my step dad says I was up at like 1 acting insane! I have talked to my alters and none of them know what's going on. Is it possible I have an alter that is blocked from all of us? Because I'm worried....

[quote="endlesslyinheaven"]Anyway when I thought I had gone to bed last night I wake upto find out my that my step dad says I was up at like 1 acting insane! I have talked to my alters and none of them know what's going on. Is it possible I have an alter that is blocked from all of us?/quote]
Yes, that is possible. Even likely. It is also possible that you were sleepwalking; sleepwalking is yet another altered state of consciousness.

Do you trust your stepdad?

It is possible and very likely. Through my years, I have done many things I had no knowledge of and neither did the alters I had identified. I currently have one that I know about but she is completely cut off. There is no way to communicate with her.

Sleepwalking is also a good possibility. I sleep text because of one of the meds I am on. I send crazy texts that don't make any sense at all. I have no recollection of writing or sending the text. There aren't any alters that do it. I am simply sleep texting. If you are on meds, check if that might be a side effect. I would do that before worrying too much about an alter.

I habe thought about that yepitsme, but I also thought about the fact that he is the only family member who has never lied to me. So most likely if HE says I was up acting strange after I claimed to go to bed than I was. He wouldn't have anything to gain by lying to me, and he also looks out for me more than my own mother does considering she lives about 5 hours away with my sister.

And I am currently not on any type of medication because I refuse to go to any kind of doctor/therapist.

What if you try to reach him/her by leaving a sticky note on a visible place for him/her?

Does your stepfather know about your DID?

I think it would help if you could define what he meant by "acting insane".

*TRIGGER WARNING, SWITCHING DESCRIPTIONS*

I have had some pretty violent switches. When I have been in high crisis, and I mean SERIOUS TRIGGER, I could be compared to one "possessed by the devil". I twitch, spasm, stretch, my head shakes violently, I mutter unintelligible words...sometimes I've been known to stretch my body further than it should...I mean, that could be considered pretty "insane" by someone who knows nothing of DID. Revolving door crisis, with the slightest understanding of what was going on in my head (as this was fairly recently after being dx'd), make for a fertile playground.

But, with a lot of time, and a lot of counselling, reading and work I am managing those episodes a lot better now. they happen infrequently, and my high trigger times, while unpredictable, are far more manageable.

I'll also state this is MY experience, and I can not comment on how common it is.

*END TRIGGER*

So, I ask what his definition of insane is for this reason, if it's serious then you two should be discussing safety plans...not question the sanity of it. Questions can come much later, in that moment what is best is everyone having an idea of what is happening, to the best of their ability, to keep you (and them) safe.

Thanks for listening, hope this helped

No, I never told my family about my disorder because they're so religious that I'm afraid they'll thing I'm possessed and like try to have me exocised. Yes, they are all really that crazy sometimes. They thought me being a lesbian was like the end of the world.

TRIGGER WARNING:
Reginald says I was eating raw meat, trying to climb walls, and trying to sacrafice my mini dogs Enzo and Leila to the Blood God? It was a joke between me and my friends at school that we wanted our senior chant to be Blood for the Blood God, but I didn't think I could like actually do it? I don't evdn know! And when I woke up the next morning he said I was acting insane. Then asked if I was on my period?!
END TRIGGER!

I have never done that before, and I scared the crap out of me. And I know I can be a bit over the top while on my period, but I've NEVER eaten raw meat and tried to sacrifice my dogs! I have tried explaining to at least my step dad that I have a disorder, but he's clearly not willing to listen.