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I am having trouble making sense of my thoughts. People tell me it is all delusions and i don't know.
I think I was programmed using mind control. I have no idea how anyone would do this. At one time I thought I should protect my children from my parents but now we do see them on occassion. They aren't as scary any more. My dad seems so old.

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I have found some information googling about these types of things, but you can find almost anything to support any point of view I guess. Is it even possible?

I do have a psychotic disorder and i am going to be evaluated for a dissociative disorder. I don't know if this is the right forum, I have short-term memory loss but not amnesia for long periods of time. I do feel like other people speak through me, but I am present.

I don't know if it is mind control. I know from reading on the forum that denial and finding other things to blame your symptoms on comes with DID. I also have the short term memory loss but not amnesia for long term events either. I'm also non-DID as well but think I might have this. I don't feel like people speak through me but I feel like when I'm typing they do, if that makes sense. While you can program the brain to make it think anything is true, it is very, very difficult to make the brain develop DID because of how complex a disorder it is. I would discuss this with your T, if you feel comfortable doing so and maybe your T can help straighten things out for you.

Violarules wrote:I don't know if it is mind control. I know from reading on the forum that denial and finding other things to blame your symptoms on comes with DID. I also have the short term memory loss but not amnesia for long term events either. I'm also non-DID as well but think I might have this. I don't feel like people speak through me but I feel like when I'm typing they do, if that makes sense. While you can program the brain to make it think anything is true, it is very, very difficult to make the brain develop DID because of how complex a disorder it is. I would discuss this with your T, if you feel comfortable doing so and maybe your T can help straighten things out for you.

Yes, that makes sense. They come out when I type, too. I did sort of mention it to her, but that it was a delusion I had, not that I thought it could be real. You are probably right that you couldn't purposely make someone have DID.

I am going to go through one thing at a time, because if I say something bizarre it seems to negate the other things that could be real. First, I have having an evaluation for a dissociative disorder on 3/12. Depending on how that turns out I will either dismiss everything as being delusional or start asking more questions.

This could be also be simply paranoid schizophrenia or something similar.

Jasper wrote:This could be also be simply paranoid schizophrenia or something similar.

Yes, jasper I do have a psychotic disorder. I am having trouble differentiating what was real vs delusions. It isn't simple for me. I am having an assessment for dissociative diorders 3/12.

I wish you good luck to your dx appointment.
It would be nice if you post here what came out on the appointment.
I've also a schizophrenic spectrum disorder and I know how this is. Hearing voices is also a symptom of the schizophrenia spectrum.

My head also feels very often too loud and I feel like there could be someone else, but I've also other symptoms who are typical for the schizophrenic spectrum like magical thinking and other once. So in my case those symptoms are part of the schizophrenic spectrum.

Jasper wrote:I wish you good luck to your dx appointment.
It would be nice if you post here what came out on the appointment.
I've also a schizophrenic spectrum disorder and I know how this is. Hearing voices is also a symptom of the schizophrenia spectrum.

My head also feels very often too loud and I feel like there could be someone else, but I've also other symptoms who are typical for the schizophrenic spectrum like magical thinking and other once. So in my case those symptoms are part of the schizophrenic spectrum.

Thank you

I will post the results. I told my tdoc today (I am seeing a specialist for the eval) She was really supportive. I was nervous to tell her. I have never talked about most of those things before.

Lori, I know for a fact that my children need to be protected from my parents. I knew this even before I found out I have DID. I read your post in another group here about some of your early life experiences. I'll just say we are close in age and in many respects our experiences were similar.

After I was diagnosed I had my children evaluated for dissociative symptoms by a marriage and family therapist (MFT) who specializes in diagnosing and treating DID in children. My children are fine. Whew. Imagine my horror to learn that such a severe consequence of child abuse is so prevalent that a person could specialize in treating it. On this therapist's intake family history form I wrote that my family of origin was "normal dysfunctional". When the T read that detail the T laughed out loud and complimented me on my insight.

Una+ wrote:Lori, I know for a fact that my children need to be protected from my parents. I knew this even before I found out I have DID. I read your post in another group here about some of your early life experiences. I'll just say we are close in age and in many respects our experiences were similar.

After I was diagnosed I had my children evaluated for dissociative symptoms by a marriage and family therapist (MFT) who specializes in diagnosing and treating DID in children. My children are fine. Whew. Imagine my horror to learn that such a severe consequence of child abuse is so prevalent that a person could specialize in treating it. On this therapist's intake family history form I wrote that my family of origin was "normal dysfunctional". When the T read that detail the T laughed out loud and complimented me on my insight.

Thanks Una+, you are so helpful. . yeah, dysfunctional for sure. I am very happy to hear your children are fine.

I interact with my parents on my terms. I would call that setting boundaries but to them it is a symptom that i am not thinking clearly.

Anything is possible with DID! The key is to get the help to get the feedback! knowing ones self as a dissociative is very important.

I do not interacted like others in the world; the Normy's! I am a broken confused animal.

I would take each situation as it comes my way if possible!

Delusional thinking can be a complete disorder in-its -self!

Ive always been delusional to the point of a schizoid state! The world is a war zone underneath the smiles and suits n ties! I never know what is up or what is down!