New here, possible DID.

Hi everyone, was looking for forums for people with DID and ended up here!

A bit about me, hope I don't ramble on too much!
I haven't been officially diagnosed, I think mainly because I am reluctant to talk about it all.
I have had mental health problems for a long time and was in hospital for the majority of my adolescence (I am 22 now)
After a year or so of having 'odd' experiences with memory loss and finding that 'I' had done things that I had no memory of, I told some close friends and they first brought up DID.
I eventually mentioned it to my MH team and they agree that I fit the criteria and wanted me to see a specialist in DID, but the specialist had to leave because of budget cuts, which is annoying!

I've been struggling a lot with this recently, what She does is getting worse. The other day, I woke up to an email telling me that 'I' had bought plane tickets costing nearly £300! Luckily, I should be able to get the money back. She has also cut me and tied things round my neck on occasions, but She has also got me to A&E (I assume, I don't know how I got there and it was suggested that it was Her)

So I'm pretty confused, don't know much about all this and have no idea what to do about....anything!

So yes, end ramble, thanks for reading.

Hello PlaceboEffect. Welcome to the DID Forum. Sounds like you are in the UK. If so, contact the Pottergate Centre about getting an expert assessment for you, and consultation for your MH team.

Experts become experts through education, training and experience. All experts once were novices. If you have no expert to hand then one solution is to pick someone who has potential and help them become an expert.

Thanks for your reply

I have done the DES and SDQ20 screening things from the Pottergate Centre and shared the results with my MH team. I think they were going to sort out a psychology referral for me, but the waiting list is over a year! There is no way I can afford private therapy either, sadly.

I feel quite alone with this, which is why I joined. I have no idea how to deal with what She does or if I can control it in anyway? I really don't have a clue, it hadn't crossed my mind that I could have DID until my friend mentioned it and all this has happened within a very short space of time. It's all very overwhelming and scary!
Sorry, rambling again!

Una+ wrote:Experts become experts through education, training and experience. All experts once were novices. If you have no expert to hand then one solution is to pick someone who has potential and help them become an expert.

That's a really good way of thinking!

Just wanted to say welcome here and I hope you find the support you need here

Thank you

The main thing I kind of wanted to find out is can people usually tell that they are going to 'switch'?

It's all still pretty scary, and Joanna seems to be able to take more control much more often these days and I don't think there are any signs of when it's going to happen?

For me, (I don't fully switch. I do have something similar happen though.) I can tell when one of mine wants to, "join in" the conversation. She is young, so she shouts out very random things. I can't remember much time around the remark. I can tell when she starts to listen when I get a shudder, like a chill. Except it's more of a pushed feeling. I actually lose thought, then I blink, then life goes on... unless she wants to say something. Sorry if that's complicated. I don't know if that's even comparable to anything anyone else is experiencing, but that's how it goes for me.

Thanks for sharing your experiences

Anything is helpful right now!
My MH team are reluctant to talk about it so it gets glazed over and not mentioned again

I think I start to 'zone out' more before Joanna takes over completely.
She does really horrible things sometimes.
She cut us once so had to get stitches but then tried to convince my friends that She was trying to help me!

I'm not really sure what to do, where to go for help/advice whatever because my MH team are suddenly refusing to acknowledge this whole thing!!