OK he FINALLY has to come out. (Major Trigger Warning)

Lately my other strongest part has been fighting with me and yelling at me at night. It really wants to sleep on the couch when I think the bed is just fine. It wont SHUT UP until I sleep on the couch.

I'm sure all of this is driving my family mad.

It has something it wants to say to me and wants everyone to know it.

YOU ARE A WEAK #######1, YOU NEVER MAKE IT THROUGH ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTHLESS AND PATHETIC, GO BACK TO YOUR SAD SACK SELF THROW YOURSELF AWAY IN YOUR CORNER. IF YOU WANT THINGS DONE IT HAS TO BE DONE MY WAY. THE ONLY WAY ITS EVER WORKED FOR YOU. LOOK AT YOU NOW. PATHETIC. NOTHING. WHY? BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS INTERFERE WITH ME. I'M THE ONE THAT MAKES YOU MONEY, I'M THE REASON YOU ###$. AND YOU ALWAYS THROW ME AWAY AND KEEP ME BACK LIKE ITS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. DID YOU SERIOUSLY TRY TO PUT ME IN A HOSPITAL? AND YOU ACTUALLY PULLED THROUGH WITH IT? WHAT THE ###$ ARE YOU DOING? YOU SABATOGE EVERYTHING DON'T YOU GET IT ASSHOLE NO ONE IS GOING TO HELP YOU JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY.

Hi there.

I'm sorry that you're having a hard time.

To the bold text alter:
You seem like you've done a lot to help out and tried to help crate a good life for you all with the things you need. You also seem very angry, maybe you've endured a lot of hardship for your system over the years. I hope they're thankful for that if you have.

You say he's throwing you away after you help him. That doesn't sound very nice. Do you have any thoughts about what you need or would like to feel better about everything?

I hope you can come to an agreement, fighting like this isn't nice for anyone involved.

Thinking of you.

lifelongthing wrote:Hi there.

I'm sorry that you're having a hard time.

To the bold text alter:
You seem like you've done a lot to help out and tried to help crate a good life for you all with the things you need. You also seem very angry, maybe you've endured a lot of hardship for your system over the years. I hope they're thankful for that if you have.

You say he's throwing you away after you help him. That doesn't sound very nice. Do you have any thoughts about what you need or would like to feel better about everything?

I hope you can come to an agreement, fighting like this isn't nice for anyone involved.

Thinking of you.

I'm never appreciated...

I'm always the bad guy... the outcast... I'm the only reason that this little #######1 even ever had a life.

LOL!!!!!one1!11!!!!eleven!!!1!!!!.

HAHAHAHA i'm known now. I'M EXPOSED. EXPOSE.

Reminds me a bit of Seth on a rant. He screamed nasty, self-deprecating (towards the original) vitriol at the ex-husband

You seem to be under the impression it is somehow devastating to allow someone other than yourself space to exist. I find it wildly hilarious that faces wearing themselves every day - parts who walk around shivering - hosts are in possession of the largest egos, while claim the complete opposite. Being egotistical has little to do with pride. Arrogance is merely a byproduct of action misdirected. Your ego vastly dwarves your ability to admit that you exist alongside disconnected parts: those of you who have spent their lives in a ######6 vacuum. Stop acting like it's horrific that there's anger in you. It's natural. It's just holed up with a different part. Continue to ignore it, and it will continue to control you. This guy, all black rage, he isn't going to ###$ anyone over; he isn't going to hurt you. Listen to what he's telling you. He's pissed the hell off because you can't see past your own misery far enough to recognise you have people looking out for you. Recognise him. Acknowledge him. Let him scream and shout. Write it out. Give the guy a ######6 break.

skin wrote:Reminds me a bit of Seth on a rant. He screamed nasty, self-deprecating (towards the original) vitriol at the ex-husband

You seem to be under the impression it is somehow devastating to allow someone other than yourself space to exist. I find it wildly hilarious that faces wearing themselves every day - parts who walk around shivering - hosts are in possession of the largest egos, while claim the complete opposite. Being egotistical has little to do with pride. Arrogance is merely a byproduct of action misdirected. Your ego vastly dwarves your ability to admit that you exist alongside disconnected parts: those of you who have spent their lives in a ######6 vacuum. Stop acting like it's horrific that there's anger in you. It's natural. It's just holed up with a different part. Continue to ignore it, and it will continue to control you. This guy, all black rage, he isn't going to ###$ anyone over; he isn't going to hurt you. Listen to what he's telling you. He's pissed the hell off because you can't see past your own misery far enough to recognise you have people looking out for you. Recognise him. Acknowledge him. Let him scream and shout. Write it out. Give the guy a ######6 break.

Thank you so much.

You just calmed me down instantaneously. and it seemed like you spoke directly to my soul.

I'm sorry you're never appreciated. That can't feel good at all.

Is there anything you feel you need or you think could help you feel less angry? Communicating a bit gentler to your host may help give you better results. Scaring him isn't a good option for any of you because it means he's bound to give you less freedom.

I'm sorry you're experiencing this.
I hear you at least and I hope you can come to a solution where you're both feeling more fulfilled.

you guys are godsends.

He doesn't need to talk anymore and is gone. I feel like a singularity again.

I'm glad things are better now.

Don't forget this part of you and his needs though.

If you need to talk we're here

Nevermind he wants to talk again.


I just hate the world...

I hate having to supplicate to it...

Like that little $#%^ always does.

Begging it for mercy...

I always have to TAKE to get anything. because the world treats him like trash. and he just prances along turning the other cheek everytime. PLEASE MORE. ###$ ME OVER MORE. HOW CAN I HELP YOU TODAY. DID I DO EVERYTHING RIGHT THIS TIME? AM I DOING EVERYTHING OK FOR YOU?
SHOULD I MOP THE FLOOR WITH MY TONGUE THIS TIME? CAN I HELP YOU DO ANYTHING ELSE THAT COMPLETELY PUTS MYSELF IN A COMPLETELY IDIOTIC POSITION?

I'm sick of it. I have secrets that I wont tell him either and he knows it. He keeps trying to get them from me but he wont. The world is trying to get them from me but they wont. They are things that needed to be done to SURVIVE. BECAUSE HE NEVER DOES ANYTHING RIGHT. BECAUSE HE'S A ######6 DOORMAT BECAUSE HE'LL NEVER GET IT.

-- Thu Oct 24, 2013 5:32 am --

He always gets the scraps...

he's like a dog begging under the table for the bone. After everyone is done eating it and laughing at him and watching him play with it... He knows it too. but he's too much of a WEAK PATHETIC INDIVIDUAL TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

I'm sorry to hear about how you've been treated. That sounds really awful and I know from experience how degrading this world can really be.

You seem like you really do a lot to protect your system and try to stand up when something wrong is happening to you.

Do you think you could be able to, a little more gently so he can handle listening, tell Greg what he is doing at this time that is making you angry, in what situations he is giving too much of himself?

I know parts of me have been very upset at my level of submission and the situations I've put myself in to appease others. Hearing from them how it hurt them as well as me helped me stand up for myself better and handle myself more respectfully (towards myself as well) in situations where I needed to set boundaries.

I hope you're able to do the same in healthy ways. I'm glad you can talk here.