I am lost and confused

Hello,

I have been looking over the boards for a while now. I don't know what I am dealing with but it seems to fit in here. I've always had different sides to me but they never made any sense. I couldn't understand how I could feel one way for a while and then all of the sudden I didn't know if I felt that way anymore. Its like I go through periods of confusion about people and things that at some points I know I have a certain opinion on.

So after reading for a while I decided to do an experiment. I stopped listening to all the sides in my head and now I feel like I don't know anything at all. I now feel less capable than ever. I know people but not much of how I should feel about them. I don't know who to trust and I feel tired and exhausted almost all of the time. Can I have DID if I can just push these opinions or feelings away? I'm so confused and I don't even know what questions I should ask.

Thanks for listening and any help would be appreciated

Hi and welcome to the forum. There are some useful links by tomboy24 that you should start with. Unfortunately, it isn't easy to copy and paste those on my cell phone, so hopeful someone else will do that for you.

I can't really offer much advice right now, but I wanted to say hi.

I also wanted to say hi. I am a support person, but hopefully someone with a little more knowledge will post for you, but in the meantime, if it makes you feel better, my friend sounds very much like you. Even he same wording "lost and confused." Different opinions about things from one minute to the next and sometimes right back again. To the undiagnosed and untreated this can be truly confusing.

Even singletons go through periods when they're not sure about themselves, but if you do have DID, I'd say yes, you can probably push those opinions and feelings away like anyone, but chances are very good they will resurface again at some point. They probably will not go away.

It can be very hard to know who to trust. In time I hope you come to trust someone that is good to you, does not not judge you, listens to you, cares for you and has your best interest at heart for real. That's the type of person to trust.

Please, if you think of any questions to ask, by all means ask. Maybe someone will have a good answer and something will click for you. Keep us posted.

Thank you very much for taking the time to respond to me. I do not even know what to ask. I feel alone and slow in my mind. I know where I am but not many details. Some people are more familiar than others but I don't know how I know some people. I know that I don't know my girlfriend much if at all. I know she is my girlfriend and that we live together. But I know not so much about her. I know it is hard to talk to her and she seems like i am not doing enough to help with the house. I know this already but now it is different. Now I seem to hear it a lot. I know I'm not making sense but it is as if she is expecting me to respond and I have to respond and I can't get away enough. Am I making Ny sense ? I know but I do not know. I do not know much what to feel. I just feel like I'm lost like a lot of "me" is not here anymore. Thank you for listening

It makes a little sense to me, because I am the girlfriend of a man with DID (if you have DID, you do not know, correct?); when he first started living with me, I think it was actually one alter that did the deciding for him to move in with me, and it took the others a while to catch up. Yes...they didn't do much at home in regards to chores, ha ha....but I knew he was troubled and depressed when I met him and so I picked up the slack. With time, he seemed to come out of his shell and starting doing things, and he flourished because the environment was safe and trustful.

How long have you known your girlfriend? Do you remember when you moved in together? If she does not know about your DID, then she will not understand, and that is why she will act like she acts.

It is possible it is taking the others a while to know her, and you may feel "lost in your head" right now. I don't know if that makes sense either.