Seeking information *trigger warning?*

Greetings My name is Allissa I am rather new too these forums so please forgive me if I fail to use the proper terms or do not understand as well as I should. This is actually Our first time seeking help from others with DID. Soooo here goes *\\\\\*. I am twelve years old but the body I reside in is 26. I am female yet the body is male. I am the main host for the body. Though this only became such a few years ago. The original host expirenced a betrayal that hurt him so much he killed himself yet the body did not die. Yet the original host has not been *present*since. I have been having a very difficult time of late. From having too act more mature then I am to be able to live day to day life. Our T telling me too act the body's age. Too even Our room mates telling me too grow up. I have started too feel very unwanted but I do not know what too do. It also does not help that the other female alters in the system are extremely sexual and …drag me into it. I don't know what too do x.x and really would just like to ask if their is any one else like me that well um … is a young alter but ummm sexually aware.. And if so how do you deal with it in day too day life.

um... Hi Allissa, I'm Sonja I'm also 12, and I know what it's like to be uncomfortable when the others are doing sexual things with other people. I just leave. I know what it's like to pretend we're a grown up too, because the body is 27 and she has to work and stuff. I used to be the host, but then others took over, so maybe it will happen for you too? Just like it did for the original one? N, our original host, was not the main host for 15 years! If you want you can play with me in the little's forum - we have a treehouse and a trampoline and a rainbow hammock and lots of paint and stuff - then you can have a break from pretending to be a grown up . It's fun!

Greetings Sonja, thank you greatly for your reply too my message. I am sorry it took me so long to reply back i have had a lot going on in real life .


My main concern as far as the sexual stuff goes is um, i dont know if i x.x dislike it or not i am still confused about it but also am very curious about it.from my reading i know most our age hide when the others do such but i guess i dont know what to do i am very curious about it and i kind of want to learn but it is also scary at the same time x.x after having to act more mature for so long and dealing with the other Alters as erll as how people joke and act with the body it has left me very confused about what is or is not ok for me to try and learn more about.


As to the little ones thread. thank you so very much for inviting me it sounds like a really fun place. i will have to try and make some time to hang out there. right now it is hard for me to get time at a real computer to post. my original post was from an itouch.

I feel the same way about sexual stuff. I am curious but it makes me uncomfortable. I wish it could just be cuddling and holding hands and giggling and smiling and kissing. I like those things! We have an alter who does the sex stuff so that I don't have to. She likes and wants it a lot. And N does stuff too. It is OK if you don't post often we understand what it's like to be busy all the time, or in my case I'm not out all the time...