Just needing a quick vent!

School starts back up in just over a week now (second year of college) and I'm starting to get nervous.
Last semester (before summer) I nearly fell apart early on and had to drop 3 of my classes and cut down to part time. I was only just barely able to scrape by mentally (though I did finish strong with an A in 1 class and a B in the other).
At the end of the semester a week before finals I snapped. It's all a complete blur to me now but I know I completely lost an entire week there, and when I did 'snap' back into my life...I was EXTREMELY floaty for several days. I wasn't attached to my body at all, and when I was speaking...it wasn't me speaking. It wasn't my body. They weren't my words.
I remember calling my therapist at some point and leaving her a message. I was so scared, and I started to cry on the phone. I've not once cried in front of my T before.

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Holy crap I'm floating bad right now as I'm typing this. I just felt myself being sucked out of my head.
lol okay...I'm okay again! that was weird though!!
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...I don't know. I'm just nervous. I'm going full time again. 5 classes. At least 1 of the classes will be a real struggle for me (math)...and dang college can get intense when you've got multiple tests to take or essays to write all due in 1 week.

I've been so in and out of it all summer.
I'm just nervous.
I'm ready though! I CAN do this!

I was seeing my therapist on a as needed basis...but she also ran a group I went to on a weekly basis, which I found to be all I needed as far as therapy most of the time.
However she recently diagnosed me with DD NOS (I think we'll both pretty much known it for quite sometime...it's just taken time for her to give me the actual diagnosis and put it down in my paperwork), and she stopped the group (so sad!) so she has me coming in once a month. I see her on Tuesday.

Do you guys think it would be greedy of me to ask her if I could see her twice a month? I think I could use the extra support...at least till I hopefully get in the swing of college again.
I always feel so guilty asking her to see me...especially if I don't feel like I 100% need her at the time.

Sorry for the ramble guys. Thanks for giving me a safe place to vent!

It's completely brave of you to ask for extra help. I'm proud of you!

Do you have your most difficult time over the summer? I know my BF does (I'm the support person). Maybe take more classes in the fall, and less in the spring if that's possible.

Do whatever you need to stay in school and to make yourself feel healthy and safe.