What is this feeling?

I have been feeling so out of it lately...

I know part of it is I haven't been getting enough sleep... I'm so exhausted and i've been wearing myself too thin.... but I think it's more than that.

I think there is a lot going on inside... I'm just not sure though

things are coming and going in and out of focus so much more, but I haven't really been switching much... I mean, I've lost just a little time here or there, but less than it was, but instead now it's like I'm just not really there even though I am, or things go blurry then clear.... I don't know, I've been trying to ignore it but it's kind of hard...

I'm just not quite sure what all is hapening...

Wanda hasn't been out at all (like she said she wouldn't be)

If I had to guess I think that maybe instead of just "paying attention" I think that it's almost like Amanda is out with me or something, which isn't what we normally do.... but it is what it feels like when I really think about it, like maybe she is coming out more but only for a few seconds at a time but often, or.... I just don't know..... but trying to guess and figure it out is confusing and frustrating.... I hate when I don't know what is going on with me....

I need some rest I think.....

What you are describing if I understand correct sounds plausible.
I read today the links in sevOn's signature and some things were eye-opening as:
2 alters cannot exist at the same moment, but they can switch quickly, and I feel like it happening as well.

Did not figure out how many, but lately I am hardly able to remember even a day.
Since beginning of the year, I cannot remember the months and events (except some moments).
Many little time-losses making a whole amnesia of all the months.
Don't know what I did in January, February ............................

So you write that it feels like Amanda is out with you, but maybe she is just very quickly switching with you causing the small time-losses and blurry-ness.

It is just a guess............

I am fairly certain that is what was going on.... Thanks for your input....

lately both my boy friend and my best friend have made comments like "you seem out of it" or "you looked like you were maybe going to switch, but you didn't" and other similar things....

It has calmed down a bit though.... I have been feeling better so that is nice.... I still don't know what it was all about though.... knowing the what is good, but I'm still curious about the why....