loneliness

Do you ever feel lonely? I've read that DID is often an attachment disorder as well. I never feel lonely because I'm almost never alone in my head! We're almost always talking to each other. Most of us fear attachment to other people though (or are unable to connect even if we wanted to)... I wonder though, if we do integrate completely some day, if there's silence in my head, if we'll then desire to have emotional intimacy with others... The closest we've come is with our T, but he's at a safe distance away (a one-sided relationship, confidentiality, etc).

I've had many periods in my life where I didn't feel lonely and didn't even understand what feeling lonely might mean. I've had other periods where I do understand loneliness and feel it. The worst loneliness for me is being around people who I don't relate to, I would rather be alone and lonely. I would like to have another person/people around who understands but if not then I prefer when I don't know what loneliness is.

Kat: Oh I know what this is like...I feel like I shouldn't be lonely since I have 16 other alters to talk to. I don't fit in with them because I'm half human, and I don't fit in with the outside world because I'm half alter. I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I can't relate to the other alters and I can't relate to the human world much at all. So yes, I do know what loneliness feels like. I try to ignore the feeling, though, and make the best of it...it does hurt, though, sometimes.

i feel many different types of loneliness. Lonely sometimes when i'm in the body alone for too long, lonely for not having human contact, or contact with people who understand us.
At our number i'm amazed we have times that are quiet enough to feel lonely, but i always like having some company around.

Our case is similar but it's more so the fear of loosing an attachment with somebody. Actually to most of us that's Stephen's purpose (and we must say he's done more then fill it). We're autophobic sooo yea haha that sort of says a lot. Sometimes though the moments of being alone are the few moments I actually feel Plan. Like he's always cohosting and that's why its not a struggle to retain memories or information but when we have nothing it's just him, sometimes me, Elias, or Stephen. But usually he says he needs to be alone to adjust the plan.