A letter to those in denial

This is something I found on our deviantart page, I saw it there a little while ago and didn't dare read it, but today I did, and it helped quite a bit. Whilst it is specific to me, I think (and hope) that it will help other people as well. So here is this letter:

Realisation
May 12, 2013, 9:45:26 AM
Journals / Personal
It doesn't matter!

We can't all feel each other all the time: Katy, you wouldn't be able to feel anyone else unless they were touching you, why should anything different apply to us.

We aren't always all conscious of each other: Some of us need to be more aware and some of us less aware. You do a great job of avoiding situations or emotional states that provoke the need for us to come out, but we're here if they arise. We're here to catch you, when you fall. You don't need to worry about letting us do that, that's why we're here. Stop panicking. We can't all always feel each other and you don't need to be able too feel us always either. If you can't feel us, that doesn't mean we don't exist, it doesn't mean your crazy - it means that you don't really need us right now, that we're taking a break, involved with a problem internally, sleeping, taking time for ourselves or otherwise preoccupied.

Calling us out isn't how this works. I mean maybe in the future we'll be able to come and go at your command. Maybe you'll be able to come and go according to ours. At the moment, you worry. Especially since Portsmouth: you realised that, yes? We know that as much as you want reassurance and for us to be ourselves that at the moment, it's also what terrifies you. You're worried that your parent will find out about us. We know that's not safe for you or us. We know how badly your taking her mild non-acceptance, despite the fact you've barely breached it with her. We're here to protect you and keep you safe and help you and to be ourselves as well. We know you want her to know, but truthfully, we're pretty happy her not knowing. If she doesn't accept us or is skeptical it hurts you and it hurts us. WE ARE SECRETS. We do not need to be known. When telling anyone else you know how vulnerable all of us feel. We're grateful for your acceptance of us, but it's almost forced. Just let us be. Just let yourself be. It's all ok.

We aren't all you, we share this body yes. We may arguably be parts of you, but you experience emotions that aren't ours and we experience emotions that aren't yours. We are not just one emotion, we are not one aspect of a person, we have our flaws but we are ourselves. We are not just one facet of you. You need only be yourself. We are a quiet system. We are a subtle system. We are not overt or over the top. We don't feel the need to come out all of the time - mostly, because we don't need to. We are not drawing attention to you or ourselves unnecessarily. Just because we aren't what you read, it doesn't mean we aren't real or right. If we aren't out all the time it doesn't mean we are unhappy or internally trapped. Just because we don't go out and be entirely different to you, doesn't mean we're not really real. We respect the choices you make to keep us safe, you should respect our choices to keep you safe. We are unique, just like you and maybe over time you will understand this more and more.

Just because you have acceptance today, doesn't mean you will in the future. Come back. Read this. Don't freak out. We are here when you need us the most and THAT is all that matters.

All-Of-Us

P.S: Stop reading the news if it upsets you.

This was really sweet to read You have a system that really, really cares about you

Wow. A very powerful letter. Thanks for sharing. I can relate to a lot of those thoughts.

-B