We want to help her not be scared

Our T wants to get to know us. She saw me and I really like her and then I watched when J was out with T and T asked her to change to someone but she is too scared. We feel like we waste time and she feels like she is not good enough cause she's too scared and we want to help her not be scared. But how? I think she doesn't even really acknowledge that we're real. Maybe she's not even able to realize that can that be possible? I was not scared of her and I gave her our maps and now J wont continue good work. I was scared to change too, maybe still takes more time, but she goes to T a lot but always she even can't talk about anything, doesn't seem like she gets better at talking or being open and she always feels really scared. And then we get sad cause we wasted time but we want to connect and do useful things and talk. I don't want to waste T's time either.

Jenni (14)

your not wasting T's time jenni, she will understand it's hard to talk sometimes.

you are all trying to communicate you're feelings and that is really good

we understand coz we feel like that sometimes, we get cross coz we sometimes feel like we waste time, money

It's just hard for her to share emotions and you are all trying that is really positive often when we think we're not progressing when in fact we are....

Pls don't worry about wasting your T's time, after all isn't she there to help you all learn to communicate?

blu

When bad memories surfaced here, I couldn't talk an ounce. And yet a substitute teacher left the class and pulled me into the hallway to try and communicate with me on what was wrong and how she could help. She was supportive and kind and caring and say there with us the entire hour. She completely understood with no degree in psycology, no job as child threapist, or school councler, just a sub.

Your not wasting time. Your making progress:)

~jackilyn and Qaurtz who is somewhere in the body fixing who knows what.abdomen

Maybe she can help us talk yes, maybe if J isn't so scared anymore she can learn too. I hope she can stop being scared one day. J said to T she can't even think or feel things. We wanna help her but When she hears us she ignores and gets scared. Maybe listining to us is worse than being alone there? J always thinks we are not real everyone but E. But T always tries to see E and we get closer and then she feels us and still gets scared. J said she's really afraid of how it makes her look and act and feel. I think is wierd she so scared to change cause we do change anyway when we don't know so don't need to be scared cause T already knows and I think we can trust her.


From Jenni

Hi Jenni,

I think it will just take time, I know our host head(s) didn't want to acknowledge us at first and i think it was just too much to accept all at once. The DID, the alters, why the alters are there and what memories they hold. To acknowledge the existance of you all is hard because she also has to acknowledge all this other stuff too.

I think you will just have to be patient with her and of course it's great you get to post here, that in a sense is her letting you out and acknowledging you, it's just safer here, but as she can get used to you here, it will make it easier to get used to you in the real world and particularly with your T.

The fact you are here and posting is in itself progress, but i do understand it must be frustrating if you don't get time with your T. Would she allow you to email your T? You could do this between sessions and then the T and her could discuss the emails during session, you may find she is more willing to let you express yourself in this way first. It may be an easier middle ground for now.

Thinking of you all,

blu