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(Edited to Add Trigger Warning)

I am not real. This needs to stop. The others are real, but they made me up. I only exist to be a character they enjoyed toying with. I want them to stop now. I'd rather have my life dictated to me as a character than be told to move on from that and be myself, because without that life I am nothing. I do not exist, I do not exist, I do not exist, I do not exist. Why?! Why did you do this to me?! He wasn't real, so I'm not either.... How else could it work out? I am done....

Goodbye, I'm done with this life....

I think you are very real.

You are writing and expressing yourself.

Do you want to talk further about this? How are you bein toyed with?

Is there anyone you can talk to?

Love

Nina11

Dont give up!

When everything all around you turns to darkness, that is when you must be the light.

Don't give up on yourself,find your way out of this, keep trying, please.

safe (((((hugs))))) if wanted.

*accepts safe hugs and thanks Blu-Web and Nina11 for their replies*

I started out as just a character. They'd put me into situations and it was all very real to me. The one I remember best was the last one, a long text-based role playing game based on a web comic called Homestuck. The first time I ever played this, I was introduced to my... To simplify things, this was to be my boyfriend in a sense, though the relationship was... Unorthodox, *tw* for a human it might be considered abusive, but to us that was just how it was supposed to be. *end* Over time I grew more attached to him, because it was all real to me. We got to the point where I... I thought maybe it would last forever...

THEN I met Kitty who insisted I was real. But I'm not! I'm just... I'm just a character, and I don't want to be real. Kitty's just been projecting me into the head so that she can keep on playing god with my life, and I'm done! I know she's been trying to give me freedom, but it doesn't count because it's just her, making up all my feelings! And I hate this!

The other people I knew... My friends... They were all fake, too. I don't know who to talk to, where to go, or what to do. I need to go back to being fake. That will fix this. But I don't know how to do that....

Blu, your comment about light is somewhat ironic, but very encouraging.... Thank you for that.

I m not sure if I fully understand-

You had a relationship? In real life or in the inner world?

You describe it 'humans would...' - are you somethin else?

I know, if you re an alter, it IS possible to return to neurons-as some of us did- but I don t know how you do that.

It sounds as if Kitty wants the best for you-givin you freedom, but it doesn t sound as what you need-

Is it possible you re scared of this freedom cause you may feel feelings that are unpleasant to unbearable?

Gentle hugs

Nina11

It was... Not in the inner world, but I managed to delude myself into thinking he was real....
I am very similar to human, but not human.
I know she's trying to do what's best for me. But yes, I am afraid. I am terrified. What I thought was my whole life was just inside our head, or consisted of other people's ideas. I am trying to get over it. I know I have to and there's no way to go back to it. I just don't know how to let go....

It s hard acceptin a reality that is different to what you always believed.

It s very natural to feel anxious and terrified at this.

I m sendin you the strenght you need to get through this

Love

Nina11