How did ppl learn they had DID?

Hi,

I'm just curious about this. If you've been dx'ed as DID, how did you come to realise that there were insiders within you? Was it from time loss, or from seeing things written or done by alters, for example, or was it a mixture of things? And how long did it take for you to face that what you saw was not always necessarily what 'you' had done, which meant accepting that there were 'others'?

I've been talking to D for as long as I can remember, really never saw him as an alter. Didn't even know what DID was till like a year and a half ago. Frank, whom I didn't find out about till September, liked to use my cell phone (September is around the time I got one). So I found out about him when I started getting calls for someone named Frank. After a few weeks and several calls later, D was the one who explained to me I'm multiple. Which finally made sense of his existance. I really didn't care too much for it 'till I actually met Frank one fine morning, 3 in the morning to be exact. Thats about the time I realized I really am multiple. Scary at first, but now I'm cool with it. And I get along fine with my alters, so not a big deal for me.

HI

I'VE HAD IT AS FAR BACK AS CAN REMEMBER, BUT DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS TILL I WAS 43YRS OLD. I THOUGHT IT WAS NORMAL. I KNOW PLENTY OF PEOPLE THAT "TALK TO THEMSELVES". WHEN YOU NOTICE, THEY USUALLY SAY, "IT'S OK AS LONG AS I DON'T ANSWER MYSELF". IF THEY ONLY KNEW.

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU HEARD "MY CONSCIOUS TOLD ME TO..." OR "I HAVEN'T BEEN FEELING LIKE MYSELF LATEY." ETC... YOU CAN RATIONALLIZE OR DENY ALMOST ANYTHING. A DX' IS MADE AFTER PROOF OF SEVERAL SYMPTOMS BEING PRESENT. WHICH INCLUDE, BUT NOT LIMITED TO; HAVING TWO OR MORE DISTINCT PERSONALITIES THAT ARE SEPARATE FROM ONE ANOTHER. THAT MEANS LIKES AND DISLIKES, (EG. DIFFERENT HOBBIES, STYLE IN CLOTHES, PENMANSHIP OF HAND WRITTING, ETC...) EVERYTHING!

SOMETIMES YOU ARE NOT AWARE OF A LOSS OF TIME. BUT YOU MIGHT NOTICE CLOTHES IN YOUR CLOSET YOU DON'T REMEMBER BUYING. PEOPLE COME UP TO YOU, LIKE THEY KNOW YOU. THEY DON'T LOOK FAMILIAR TO YOU, BUT THEY KNOW THINGS ABOUT YOU, THAT ONLY YOU COULD HAVE TOLD THEM.

YOUR BEHAVIOR CHANGES AND IT FEELS LIKE YOU CAN'T CONTROL IT, BUT IT "SEEMS" TO CONTROL YOU. YOUR VOICE OR ACCENT MIGHT CHANGE SUDDENLY. YOU NOTICE IT MORE WHEN YOU FEEL THREATENED, OR OUT OF PLACE. MOST PEOPLE WITH D.I.D. HAVE HAD VERY TRAMATIC CHILDHOODS INVOLVING REPEATED SX'UAL ABUSE.

I WOULD HAVE NEVER GUESSED I HAD D.I.D. I STILL WANT TO DENY IT AT TIMES. BUT THEN THAT UNEXPLAINED BEHAVIOR WOULD POP UP. IT WAS SO HARD TO EXPLAIN WHAT WAS GOING ON TO A SHRINK. I WAS SCARED TO DEATH. I THOUGHT HE WOULD THROW ME OUT OF HIS OFFICE, OR HAVE ME LOCKED UP. BUT HE DIDN'T, AND I FOUND OUT WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME. IT WASN'T THE ANSWER I'D HOPED FOR, BUT IT DID ANSWER ALL THE QUESTIONS I HAD ABOUT WHAT WAS GOING ON. LETTING A PROFESSIONAL GET TO KNOW YOU, AND YOU AND YOU... IS THE ONLY WAY TO FIND OUT FOR SURE.

BEST WISHES TO YOU !
BENNY

well iv'e basically had it all my life at first i thought Kaizo was my imaginery friend thn i thought he was my mind but thn round bout a month or 2 ago he started takin control and finally today i read some of these things and realized i had DID and also how many alters do you guys acctually have cause i only have 1 as fr as i know