Fleeting moments of awareness *TW*

I'm trying to work out whether I actually have this or it's something else trying to masquerade as DID. The trouble is, a lot of my memories and a person who told me I had a dissociative disorder are tied into what could be a grand delusion but we just don't know whether things actually happened or not.

I have recalled times from my past where I have been listening to people talk and have not had any clue what they are going on about. Then all of a sudden there is a flash-bulb like moment where I become very aware but the awareness very quickly leaves before I can get a chance to acknowledge my interest.

Another example (not tied into the delusion) would be from my childhood where I can recall my mother would send me to my room for long periods and I'd have no idea why until she came back and reminded me why I was being punished. Then later on she'd tell my father or grandmother what I did and it would all be news to me and then that fleeting moment would come (but not always or sometimes even long after) where I knew and she'd look at me and say: "You know very well what you did" (I used to hear that an awful lot)

Also, I have become aware of another interesting phenomenon where I seem to be both unaware and aware of something at the same time - the awareness being evidenced in an internal conversation.