i must grow -trigger-

I want to grow up
I don't want to be 12
I am tired of being seen as a mere child.
I am not a child.
I feel like I'm an adult trapped in a little girls body.

Please let me grow.
I'm tired of this.
GROW! GROW! GROW!
It isn't fair!

I've tried making myself grow, but it won't work.
I isn't fair.
I can't do this anymore!

I feel too young.
I hate it.
Little girls are weak and I musn't be weak!

Weak is bad.

Weak
weak
weak
I am weak as long as I am 12

I need to be strong.
so I can't get hurt
so i'll have the respect I deserve.

*safe hugs if wanted*

You are NOT weak, and you shouldn't feel like you have to change to become strong. But if you feel older than the others see you as and you want to grow, then that's a good enough reason to want to grow.

Do the others know that you feel older now? Maybe one of them will know how to make you grow. Or maybe telling them will help the process? Just some ideas.

I'm sorry you're in distress.

Do you have anyone inside that you can talk to about how they were able to age?

You are not weak. You are strong and you show this even in this, with your determination and your ability to communicate what you want and feel. I'm glad you can write here.

Thinking of you.