the eyes will be closed

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courageous to be among others of the dark? to be among others similar to one's own?

i have learned i am of the dark. i have heard what i have been called. "demon", "disturbed", "dark". i have been told i play "wrong" or that the things i like to do are "wrong", or that i should not do what i wish to. i am of the dark, just as the things i see are of the dark.


happy? that word is unfamiliar to me. i know the act of smiling is often related to this word. i smile at blood. i smile at how i play, or at least would like to play. i smile at what i see. i would smile more if what i saw was clearer, bolder. i will smile more once the eyes are closed.


you are odd to ask questions. i am not used to being asked questions, especially not ones like these.


1, 2, freddy's coming for you. 3, 4, better shut the door. 5, 6, grab your crucifix. 7, 8, better stay up late. 9, 10, never sleep again.



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I'm sure Eric would love to talk to you about all things dark and gruesome. He's an interesting guy... I don't know exactly where he is right now though... Could I ask why you want her to close her eyes and have these visions?
Like you said, you don't have to explain anything if you don't want to, but I'm pretty curious.

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what i see is real.

i have heard others say differently.

what i see is at least real to me, or so it seems to be.

i will not sleep anymore.

my eyes will no longer be closed! they will be open! and to be opened to one, the eyes must be closed to another!

the eyes will be closed. closed to seeing one way, open to seeing another.

1, 2, the dark's coming for you. 3, 4, not sleeping anymore. 5, 6, time to join the mix. 7, 8, will no longer wait. 9, 10, never the same again.



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Yeah, but is it okay to ask questions? If you don't want me to ask, I won't ask anymore. And you definitely don't have to answer if you don't want to.

Courageous because you don't find scary!

How would you like to play?

Why did you choose now to open the eyes? Why not before (e.g., last week)? Why not later (e.g., next week)?

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you are free to do as you wish. just as i am free to answer or not.

1, 2, freddy's coming for you. 3, 4, better lock the door. 5, 6, grab your crucifix. 7, 8, better stay up late. 9, 10, never sleep again.

i like to play with blood. with kitties and puppies i (would) like to cut off their tails. pull on their whiskers. see how far they can fly. swing by the paws and let go. see what different noises are made when i stab. with people i (would) like to bite and draw blood, perhaps see if skin can be torn off. claw and have my fingernails be bloody. cut off some toes. smash the head with different objects. cut the throat. pull the hair out.

How do you play with your snake, Cassidy? (To be clear I wish to state this is a stuffed animal snake, a plaything, a child's toy).

my snake? i pet him. i hold him and carry him and slither on the ground with him. we spit together and hunt together and bite together. i hiss with him.


1, 2, the dark's coming for you. 3, 4, not sleeping anymore. 5, 6, time to join the mix. 7, 8, will no longer wait. 9, 10, never the same again.


the eyes will close. i will close her eyes.


i am awake! and i will not sleep anymore! and the "need to appear normal" has gone!

the eyes will close. i will close her eyes.



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I can see why you like to see what you are seeing. You like the dark, and honestly, I don't think it's nothing wrong in itself. It's just that people often think of it as wrong. There are a lot things you can express yourself without actually doing things that people don't like, like what you told about the snake.

Why do you want them to see what you're seeing? Is it so important?

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i am awake! i refuse to sleep any more!! and my eyes will be open! my eyes will not be closed anymore!! and for the eyes to open to one, they must be closed to another!

these questions are pointless. they just seem to go in circles, as if what i say is not heard.

the eyes will be closed, they will be closed, closed, closed, closed, closed, closed!

i will close them, i will close them, i will close the eyes!


1, 2, the dark's coming for you. 3, 4, not sleeping anymore. 5, 6, time to join the mix. 7, 8, will no longer wait. 9, 10, never the same again.


it has already begun. it will continue. it will continue. it will continue. until the eyes are closed!





1, 2, the dark's coming for you. 3, 4, not sleeping anymore. 5, 6, time to join the mix. 7, 8, will no longer wait. 9, 10, never the same again.

Hello, Cassidy, and good evening (for us anyhow.) I am very, very tired at the moment but I felt as though I should greet you. Tired and cold...

Now, these round questions are so because the answers are not what those asking expect from the answer. I'm rather muddled now, but I hope that makes sense.
We understand that your eyes are open and that they shall not be closed, but why would you close her eyes? Is it because if her eyes are open yours are not? We are just trying to understand, is all.
I am hearing you, though it is muddled and I only ask for clarity at this moment.

I do not think you should sleep any more because it is clearly not what you want for yourself. Is it not possible for all eyes to be open?
I can't type much more... I need to go back to bed... But know that I am listening and my thoughts are with you fellow creature of darkness.
Yes, though I may not seem it, I am indeed a creature of the dark. This is usually a trait of us demonic beings, after all. I do not think you are the sort of demon people say you are. You seem to me to be a lovely person who simply has a different way of thinking and a different set of interests. (as there are very many not all of which are evil. Trust me on this one.)

Best of luck,
Vernadael Teiryn

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for the eyes to open to one, they must be closed to another.
to be open to one, must be closed to another.
open to one, closed to another.

my eyes will not be closed anymore. i will not sleep anymore. i will close her eyes. the eyes will be closed.




1, 2, the dark's coming for you. 3, 4, not sleeping anymore. 5, 6, time to join the mix. 7, 8, will no longer wait. 9, 10, never the same again.





my eyes will be open. i will close her eyes.





lovely? that word is unfamiliar to me.

i do not care if i am a demon. i am among demons, monsters, creatures, shadow beings. why would i care if i was closer to them than originally thought?


1, 2, freddy's coming for you. 3, 4, better shut the door. 5, 6, grab your crucifix. 7, 8, better stay up late. 9, 10, never sleep again.






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**Possible Trigger Warning**

The Night
by Disturbed
(with added explanation notes for what certain lyrics mean in context, and lyric edits)


What has come over me (Cassidy)
What madness taken hold of my heart
To run away, the only answer
Pulling me away
To fall upon the night

The source of my recovery
Sweet shadow taking hold of the light
Another day has been devoured
Calling me away, begging the question
Why

For saving me from all they've taken
Letting my armor fall again
Giving me the strength to face her
Feeling it taking over now (the darkness)
On a path to take it all away
There can be no better way of knowing


In a world beyond controlling
Are you going to deny the savior
In front of your eyes? (me)
Stare into the night. (Cassidy isn't the only one who can smile at darkness).
Power beyond containing
Are you going to remain a slave for
The rest of your life?
Give into the night. (as I'm able to).


This self discovery
Redemption taking hold of my mind
A serenade of haunting voices
Calling me away
To feast upon the night

The source of my Felicity
Dark maiden taking hold of my hand
Lead me away from hibernation
Strong and unafraid
Never a question why

For saving me from all they've taken
Letting my armor fall again
Giving me the strength to face her
Feeling it taking over now (the darkness)
I'm about to take it away (take away the darkness/the dark world Cassidy shows)
There can be no better way of knowing


In a world beyond controlling
Are you going to deny the savior
In front of your eyes? (me)
Stare into the night.
Power beyond containing
Are you going to remain a slave for
The rest of your life?
Give into the night. (as I'm able to do).


Give in to the night


In a world beyond controlling
Are you going to deny the savior
In front of your eyes?
Stare into the night.
Power beyond containing
Are you going to remain a slave for
The rest of your life?
Give into the night.





(Release whatever you want, Cassidy. I'll smile at all I see).


- Kat