Anyone just wanna chat?

Hey guys I just really wanna chat and get to know some other people with DID, where you all from? How are things?

I'm from the MidWest and things are going really good for me

I told two of my friends last night about my DID and they took it wonderfully. I'm really excited for them to get to know everyone and learn everything. And one of them has actually studied DID a lot and read a book on it and everything. She didn't tell me what it was but she recommended I read it.

After next week my spring break starts and I'm going to tell all of my close friends back home about my DID too. All of us are so excited for it that we can't stand having to wait a whole week. I expect it to go really well and it's all that's on my mind.

How are things with you?

Are you from England? I'm from Devon. That's great?! I've only told a few, but they look at me like there lost, I feel like I have to suppress things. And then I get stressed, at the moment I'm pretty new to this, I used to have blanks when I was younger but recently I've had a DID crisis and alot of alters have been surfacing, I'm trying to stay In control but i get stressed and lose, I've started therapy, after being in hospital for 2 months. I have 6 alters and didn't think it was good to be discharged but they made me leave as if it wasn't there problem and have me no support, so me and my SO are going to therapy once a week, I have asked for more. I feel bad cause she has to stay with me all the time, to make sure I'm safe. /:

No I'm from the U.S.

I'm sorry you feel like you have to hold so much back. That sounds pretty difficult. And having new alters pop up all the time can be exhausting. Especially when it's so unexpected.

That hospital doesn't found very caring or helpful. I'm glad you have a SO to help you through everything. I wouldn't feel bad about it, she cares about you and I doubt she sees it as a burden. Hopefully you'll be able to go to therapy more often and things will become easier.

Hello hello,

I m a bit new to this too, so I can relate to how overwhelmin all of this is. The lack of control, the continous search for copin strategies.

I didn t want to tell people, but recentlly I m switchin mid conversations so I guess I can t but HAVE to let people know

I m sorry you had bad experiences sharin your story. Havin alters makes you feel different, and if people respond that blank,no, that s just very hard.

Nina11

oh, I wanna chat
chit chat

no, really, I crave some 'closeness' and casual talk , I think I frame it all wrong eh. story of my life.

also, I too am new to this. New to recognising my alters for what they are. It's overwhelming but fun, too. But what do I know, maybe the fun will stop any given moment. There's the Sick scary one in me and ugh.
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Can you believe, it/she/he looked for *kiddie pr0n* on MY computer? I wanna cry, I keep finding those files and saved JPG's and aaaaaaargh enough

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Cannot share my story. People don't believe just like they 'believe' but don't be;lieve about my abuse. I/WE have to understand THEM how hard it is for THEM to believe. Blah blah middle finger.
That's enough how things are.

I had a great luxurious dinner with my other half (haha) and a night with old friends whom I thought I lost. Kinda cool. I couldn't drink too much, Rosalinda is very afraid of hangovers. So everyone was drunk as hell and I was declining drinks all the time so couldn't lose myself in the party.

Sorry I talk so much, I so need it. I know I repel people by this and what I say, somehow I feel cursed. But try to look past the 'ugh' stuff. I am quite nice actually, I just write wrong.


Evanescent, so fantastic, the thing with your friends. Cheers for you!

Where are you from, Nina? Not that it matters so much.

i'm from middle Europe. I am scared to say the exact city because PARANOIA. There's always like 27 guests reading the forum and 3 registered users, the 27 bum me out. What do they do here?

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TheKing wrote:I have 6 alters and didn't think it was good to be discharged but they made me leave as if it wasn't there problem and have me no support, so me and my SO are going to therapy once a week, I have asked for more. I feel bad cause she has to stay with me all the time, to make sure I'm safe. /:

If she wouldn't care so much for you she would not stay and try to make you safe. I get where you're coming from, but you must be a real fine person so like, just throw a bit of that guilt away.

Hey it's cool I like 'closeness' . I get it, we can talk properly on pm if you want, I don't know my name at the moment and I feel weird so,yeah let's talk <3

evanescent, that is such good news that people around you respond so well It s nice to be taken for who you are, and that people are openminded and not petty or judgmental. I m happy for you.

The King, you sound as if htey didn t take proper care for you. But since I started readin, it seems there s little answers out there apart from copin strategies. Thank god for this place.

Pinkiepie, chat away sweetie, I m happy to listen or read. I ve lost friends made friends, never really got what make them leave or stay and feel responsible.
I m glad you had a nice dinner
I went to my sisters for a lovely spaghetti in her new place, the dish was lush and we laughed over photos we d taken which made us look 20 pounds fatter (wrong perspective) and how I loved to ride the scooter (sittin on the back)

Lately I ve beent hinkin about the happy things in my life -

I hav e to

the hurt is too much

The pm doesn't work for me, that is, I somehow cannot get it to operate heh one of my 'cannot cope' ones is making my life hard (what is a pair of socks).
So, someone PM me first, I'll respond happily.

Hey Nina, thanks, nice to be called sweetie <3 I always get rid of friends first, in real life, some BPD trait of Laura. But online, I seem not to make any sense, writing weird stupidities. For that feeling responsible and guilty applies to me.


Taking pictures of yourself is so much fuss and posing and lip-parting and twisting etc, it's cray, tee hee.

Well, I hope you see a plenty of great things in life, it's a struggle in our cases I believe. Personally, would love to at least take care of myself properly, that would be a happy thing each day.
You have a cool name, Nina. So there, and a scooter ride, ace. Certainly nice things.

Now I was supposed to have friends over to watch 'repo man' but i bugged out, i am scared of everything, so i got high (on my doc meds, benzos, no street junk) and all that and prayed that they would cancel
and they cancelled
they have a fight. nothing serious but the mood is gone.
i am so relieved, i am laughing.

PinkiePie, if your PM isn't working you may want to check your settings. User Control Panel > Board Preferences > Edit global settings

PinkiePie wrote: Evanescent, so fantastic, the thing with your friends. Cheers for you!

Nina11 wrote: evanescent, that is such good news that people around you respond so well It s nice to be taken for who you are, and that people are openminded and not petty or judgmental. I m happy for you.

Thanks guys

I'm a little foggy at the moment but I'm glad to hear that good things are happening to you guys too!

PinkiePie I hope your anxiety of having friends over gets better!