I'm scared will i be able to goto work ever?

Somethings just dawnd on me and it's not a nice feeling. My day to day life is messed up well and truely, i have social phobia and too scared to go out the only time i do go out is when one of my alters has control of me but she always gets me into trouble.

My days are spend trying to eat, sleep and trying to to negelct my hygine but again my alters take over so i dont get anything done.
Will i ever beable to goto work?

There is another problem also my family kind of doesnt think that DID exists so they just think im really really lazy, they dont know about my Promiscuous life because im too ashamed to admit to what ive done, because again them wild times wernt me i was not in control.

How do i go about telling my family about this problem?

another question thats been playing on my mind is, what if i finally do find a T to diagnose me but they also dont believe DID exists?

or even the theripist thinks i'm lying! these are the reasons im scared to go and get diagnosed.

Can anyone help me?

Scooby,

I didn't tell my mother or father until I was quite a bit older. I was afraid of their reaction. I went from job to job, but I couldn't hold one down for any length of time. Finally I was able to take on a job that I could handle. Don't laugh but I took on the position of a church secretary. I did volunteer work at the church for a while and finally they hired me....part time. It was while I was there that the pastor noticed that there was something very wrong with me.

I also went through some physical problems that nearly cost me my life. I worked at that church for 5 years...then I left to move onto a different job.

I think you could get a job but you may have to do a lot of work with your therapist. It's entirely possible for you to eventually hold down a good job.

Parents are not to thrilled to find out that one of their kids has DID. They think it's a reflection of their parenting skills...and it is...they just don't like facing it. When I told my parents I was much better regarding DId. Still my parents couldn't accept that I had DID.

They did know that I had anorexia. While in HS one summer I dropped a third of my weight. I weighed under a 100 pounds. My parents were so angry at me...and they stayed that way for many many years.

I hope things are easier for you.

Sweetngentle

Thats the thing i remember training at a taxi ferm for a booking clark job and i only managed a week. During my week of training i couldnt eat, sleep was bad never washed "as gross as that sounds i have a hard time going in the shower even though i Desperately want to" because a taxi office is a public place i was intimidated by everyone that came to the office and was glad when they p!ssed off.

I remember arguing with my other selves to packet it in because one of them was being flirtatious and trying to get me into trouble again. This happened in college also, i wasent in college five seconds before i was flirting away like a nutter and couldnt focus on the work i had to do. Now im stuck in the house and fear i will never be able to work, plus you need work experience to get a job in a lot of places and i havent got any work experience nor have i got anything to put on my CV because i never got good grades at school for being verbally abused so much.

I'm just lost!

D only gets me in trouble when people piss me off. Parents, teachers... bitch soccer mom customers at work that don't know when to keep their mouths shut. You know? The usual group of people you deal with. Its actually kinda funny scaring the bajeezus out of people when nice, friendly Mike switches to violent, vulgar D.

I learned about the type of work I could do through trial and error.

I've had sooo many jobs in 12 years. The longest I've been at a job was 4 years, and even then it was hard towards the end and I lost the battle as there was an alter who was emerging, and that was NOT her line of work. After a lifetime of prudish behaviors, she was also ready to let it all out, and that was not feasible given the line of work I was in.

I am very thankful to be DID, even though I did not choose to be so. I"ve realized that with DID comes an ability to have many undiscovered skills and abilities. I've worked at a manufacturing plant making boxes, at 3M boxing up paste-it notes, in a call center, child care center, insurance company, mortgage company, housecleaning, nanny, sales....and the list goes on. Did I mention a brief stint as an adult worker? ick...fortunately I was able to cut that out because I realized it was like revisiting the scene of the crime.

I go with the flow of whichever alter is in control and try to support them at work for we are all we have as far as financial support.

Have confidence. Support yourself and love your alters. They are all you in different emotional states. If you love them, they will love you back.

Life is Good!