I give up. Trigger warning

I just want to give up. I have no support. No one to help me through this pile of crap that life has dealt me. They say DID is a gift. I don't want it! I wish I had died long ago.
I wish I could die now.

You have us here. That's better than nothing. For a lot of us, this is all we have for support. DID can be a gift, if you choose to view it as one. You can heal, if you choose to help yourself heal. Things can get better for you, if you choose to not give up. Many of us feel like giving up. Many of us don't have much, if any, support, help, therapy, etc. But that can change. Maybe not right away, but it can. Just as our life can change and get better.

No offense and not trying to get at you or anything, but coming here and saying that you give up and that you have no one to help you is kinda odd to me. You come here, to a place meant to give support, and almost insult us by saying you have no support, even though everyone here has shown many times that this community is pretty good at being supportive to every user. You also come here only to say that you give up and wish you could die. If you truly give up, then what's the point of coming here to tell us so? If you were actually giving up, I would think you wouldn't care enough to post about it. So that tells me that some part of you still has some fight left.

No storm lasts forever. Eventually the sun breaks through the clouds every time. Sometimes all we can do is hang on until then.


Remember that you have support here. We care about you here. You have understanding here. You are accepted here. You can get help here if you seek it. We are here for you.

Hope things get better soon.


-KAT

Is there a hotline you could call? Or could you ask your therapist to help you with this?

I'm sorry you're going through this. You deserve to have a good life and I hope you're able to get to a point where you feel that, and we are here to support you on your way

I'm sorry it is feeling so hopeless. I see you joined in June...we have been here since April. I'm not sure if that was when you first 'found out' but I know that they say the first year is the hardest...it's a lot to take, sharing your life with others, why they are there, how this affects your life... we have another new alter...I keep thinking it is leveling out and another comes out and while we experience 'some' stabilized days...it seems like it will never truly be predictable. that..lack of structure/predictability - can really be hard.

Just keep coming here. Know that you are not alone. There ARE people who understand. And people who care about what happens...and what happened...to you. Please take care - you matter!

Thank you everyone for your support. I had a rough few weeks. I think I'm starting to do better - I have moments when I am functioning much better than I have been.
I know you all are supportive. I guess I just wish I had a friend or a SO or someone I could just sit and cry with. Someone to hold me. I'm so lonely right now. . . so much is happening and it's so confusing and I can't make heads or tails so I just think I've lost my mind.

It's only natural to want those things. You're so strong to go on and keep trying. I'm thinking of you

Fracturedself wrote:Thank you everyone for your support. I had a rough few weeks. I think I'm starting to do better - I have moments when I am functioning much better than I have been.
I know you all are supportive. I guess I just wish I had a friend or a SO or someone I could just sit and cry with. Someone to hold me. I'm so lonely right now. . . so much is happening and it's so confusing and I can't make heads or tails so I just think I've lost my mind.

It's natural to want such things, and it's natural with DID to feel confused and lost. Sometimes you just have to let yourself be. You can't always be trying to figure everything out. The brain's like a computer, if you run it too hard and too long, it's going to start to overheat and crash. You have to let it rest, and let yourself rest. Distract yourself with things like favorite movies, funny movies, uplifting music, relaxing music, doing things YOU want to do, focusing on things other than yourself, your mind, and DID. Get lost in video games or movies or music, get lost in doing things you enjoy doing, get plenty of rest and eat well to help take care of yourself, get lost in relaxing and just being, not trying to figure anything out or worrying about anything, including your own confusion.

Things will get better over time.


-KAT