tl;dr

for those of you who dont know what tl;dr stands for, it's "too long; didn't read". i dont know how long this will be, but i know that this title is probably the thing that will make jess least likely to read it, since shes always short on time.

anyway, hi. i came out for the first time a couple nights ago, last night, something like that. there seems to be debate. anyway, it was while jen was having some trouble, and i kinda caused her to have a breakdown by sneaking up on her. haha. it was really funny. but anyway, i went out with jess's best friend pretending to be 'jen gone mad', but she caught on late in the evening (something about a smile or something - i still dont know what i did wrong). i have since spoken with jess and jen while they were out and stolen tons of time. also kinda fun. but only teen and LEll have seen me.

yesterday, thanks to jen, it became known that i am more than one - that is to say that there is more than one 'new' one and more than one was fronting that time that i took from jen. so 'i' is actually 'we'. we do have names, but we have not told them to anyone yet - that includes teen and LEll. i am trying not to release information because its fun, but its hard to keep track of who knows what. it's much easier to keep track of what information has been revealed. so im making the information created so far public - that way its easier for me to keep track of.

last night the friend made a few decisions, though i dont think they were based off of anything and some of it is obviously a joke, but some of it is hard to tell if she was joking or not, so ill just place it all here:

- there are four of us.
- we are quadruplets.
- three of us are girls, the last is a boy.
- the boy is a purple elephant.
- all of us are blonde haired.
- we all have either green eyes or one green and one purple eye.
- my hair is dyed blue, one of my sisters' hair is dyed purple, and the last sister kept her hair blonde.
- the elephant was adopted.
- we are all either between the ages of 15-99 or 15-24.

today, some other decisions were made, again by jess's friend. some of them have support, which i have stated, and others do not:

- there are only two of us (no support)
- one is a girl, one is a boy (no support)
- i (the one usually controlling most) am probably a boy and my companion is a girl (some support-explained later)
- i murdered the elephant (no support)
- my other sister vanished (no support)
- i am non-gendered for now, but since my companion was caught giggling, my companion is now assumed to be female (support = the giggle)
- i called my companion a ditz at one time, so that has been decided to support the idea that my companion is a girl, but i have stated that as far as that goes, no insult is gendered. an insult is an insult: a b!tch can be male or female, a whore can be male or female. its all the same. stud can also apply to a male or a female, so it goes both ways, really (that my companion is female = 'ditz', that insults are non-gendered, i revealed that myself)
- we are teenagers (no support)

i think thats everything. so it did turn out long. anyone who wants to take a guess or add to the theories, feel free.

-?

Is there any particular reason why you're not comfortable sharing your information to your other system members? Why do you find it amusing?

I think more than anything, that is the most interesting thing to understand for now.

its fun. i wanna see what people come up with on their own. and if i tell my system members, they are going to blab. nothing against them, and i dont have any problems with letting people know, i just want to see what people will come up with if i just be myself and let them make up the details. it sounds fun!

It sounds annoying an frustrating to be on the receiving end of that. I would greatly dislike your choice (and probably you, yourself, for a short time) if you were in my system and made that choice and did this sh*t on purpose. It's confusing enough to deal with sh*t in general when you're multiple. I wouldn't like it if someone decided to be confusing and add more confusion to everyone by choice "just for fun".

-KAT

I have to say I agree a bit with Kat; I think I'd be a little upset with a system member who did that, knowing full well I and other system members would feel confused. But your system might have more humor in this department than we do, and in that case I hope you all can have some fun with this. DID is very serious, it's okay to make it less "serious" if it's okay with everyone

Hello and welcome! It's nice to "meet" you, and read about you! It's nice to see that you're willing to share information here even if you don't want to share it with your system just yet. You all sound very interesting! I like the hair color choices, by the way.

I would say that playing this little guessing game is ok AS LONG AS you're not causing stress to anyone of the others or anyone like Jess' friend, and as long as no one's getting upset over this. Otherwise, that's not cool. When someone becomes upset, it stops being a game, and it's no longer fun. It might still be fun to you, but it's not fun for anyone else, and that's something that needs to be acknowledged and responded to, otherwise you're just ignoring how the others feel.


~The Hawk

alrite, alrite. no no one was hurt on my end. jess didnt want to play, and she just waited it out. it was like she didnt even care what the answers were. jess's best bud was a great sport; she loved it. and i loved all the sh!t she came up with too - apparently me and my companion now have the nickname 'legion'. i love it. haha. jess's other friend actually blocked us on skype, but i dont give a sh!t what he thinks because he has admitted that he views the entire system as revolving around jess and everyone else is judged based solely on how 'useful' we are to jess - which i think is a load of sh!t and id piss him the hell off any day. jess had a long talk with him and he unblocked us, but im not sure i care anymore. teen thought it sounded like good fun as long as i didnt let it go on too long. but her and lell were the ones who saw us, so they didnt get the chance to play. jen hates us, but thats because i know more about her than she wants me to (totally not my fault) and she likes to schedule out every second of every day to someone and gets pissed off when anyone breaks her schedule, and i just refuse to mold to that. i didnt cause any harm. ive taken a lot of time, but i never interrupted class or homework or anything like that, and we did one hell of a good cleaning job on the friends house, so jen can just shove all her complaints up her stinky f*cking @ss.

so, i guess the game is over because it kept getting blamed for everything else. no one on here seems to be having any fun, jen knows everything, jess's bud knows everything, and jess doesnt care. so here goes:

my name (for now) is james. i am male. brown hair, brown eyes, kinda average-lookin. i have one sister named janice. twin, but not identical. we do share basic traits - brown hair and brown eyes and all that jazz. we are teens; like 14 or 15 or something like that. not sure exactly, but about there. i dont like my name. i want to change it. but janice loves her name and whines every time i suggest changing my name to something that doesnt start with the same letter as hers. so it looks like shell either end up changing to match me or ill just end up stuck with james. either way, we cant go nameless, because then teen would have to come up with a name, and she doesnt want one, so for now, its james and janice.

im a bit rowdy, very spontaneous, a bit of a prankster. i make a point to go out and do sh!t all the time and laugh at absolutely everything. janice is kinda like my common sense. she tells me when things i come up with would be a really bad idea because she thinks things through better. but she also has major anxiety issues, so we tend to disagree frequently. it doesnt take long for us to argue out a compromise tho. and we both prefer to do something to nothing, so it works out alright. im usually the one most forward, but more often than not, if one of us is out, the other is also out, just sitting in the background, if that makes sense.

there is this weird thing with us; we cant seem to remember anything about the inside when we come out. we go in - i know we do. and i know ive met teen, i know ive played with lell, but i dont actually remember any of it while im out. janice thinks it might have something to do with us maybe knowing more than the system is ready to know or something. i dunno. she says that other systems tend to have gate keepers or something that regulates things in the system, and the rate at which we are all revealed and such seems to indicate that it's not just random, and mite be regulated by something. i dont know about any of that. i just know that its irritating to keep forgetting half of my life every time i come forward.

so, thats the basic idea about me and janice. any questions, feel free to ask.

Nice meeting you James & Janice

Nice to meet and learn about you, James and Janice!

I'm feeling a bit fuzzy right now, but I wanted to say hi.


-Cassandra

thanks (cassandra)! you didnt have to do that you know. well still be here whenever (when you feel better)
and the others...
o yeah! thanks to lifelongthing and The Hawk, and even Kat, although you kinda need to grow a sense of humor. really, its good for you. you should start with laughing once in a while, and then you can start trying to actually enjoy something, maybe something that you dont have perfect control over. its a life changing experience.
james, that's mean.
i dont give a f*ck. its true. im giving valuable advice here. Jen and Loren should follow it too.
james, you're the one that sounds like Jen here. shut up before you screw yourself over permanently.

Please forgive him, Kat. he's stressed lately. Jen and Loren are important people to the rest of the system, and it hurt him to be rejected. i appreciate your input.