by TheCollective » Thu Jan 10, 2013 7:15 pm
I dont think I will be much help but I will give you my thoughts on the subject.
I wanted to say that I can really relate, I can't deal with real life kids either. They freak me out so bad. I feel like they can see through me and see what freak I am. I feel like my madness would rub off on them if I would be around them too long. I don't know how to react to them and talk with them. I feel like I'm more a child than they are. [C says that he hates them cause they're stupid and loud and dirty and they dont even know how stupid and dirty they are]
I think the reason for feeling like this might indeed have something to do with the fact that our littles come closer around children.
The other reason is that I can't know how to treat children cause I was never treated like one, so I have no example.
Also I was severely bullied, by children.
I read a book a while ago. The book stated that the author of the book can't deal with children, and according to her, that was because those children, had already lost their own 'inner child'. I think there is lots of truth to this. Because our littles did not lose the inner child, but instead got dissociated to keep it intact, it's just way weird. ( I can't recommend the book btw, cause it's not in English and there's no translated version either.)
I don't know how to discipline children either. I think talking to them is best, and setting them boundaries which keep them safe, but I don't know how to talk to a child, and i don't know what are safe boundaries.
One of my littles has a stuffie and according to her the stuffie is bigendered; sometimes female, sometimes male, sometimes neither or both. I think it's her way of honoring us, since we have alters of both genders and she knows us.
I think our alters have always had to behave much more adult than they 'should' have to. I try to talk to them and make sure they understand they can be themselves.
Other than letting them do their thing and keeping them safe, talking to them, I don't know how to deal with child alters better either. I think you will get used to it. Well at least I notice myself getting more used to it.
Maybe you could find out whether there's alters inside who have tips.
I have never needed to 'make' them behave by the way, since they are so glad they can be out for a while, they are usually happy with that. One of the adults can (hopefully) always take over when it's needed.
~TheCollective, F. 31
Dx DID, C-PTSD, BPD. Suspect bipolar.
Rx citalopram 20 mg, depakine 600 mg, abilify 5 mg