I can already feel it Trigger warning

*****************************Slight trigger warning*************************************

Panic panic panic right now I can feel them stress my self freaking out psych appointment pysch appointment.....I'm not going for DID I'm going for other reasons but the reality of I'm scared we are all scared I can feel everyone getting wierd aarrghhh the appoiment isn't til next week maybe I could cancel it but I can't. I said I would. I've skipped out so many times I don't want to do it again.

I promised Barry

I don't want to be locked up in a tiny room. I feel like I'm going to cry.
My head says psychs are braindwashers.
more say good people trieing to help.
others say bad people who want to mess with you're head.

I'ts all becoming to real It's not a game it's reality of all of this. I have this, and will for the rest of my life. It's not lala land like dads says. I have this it's not going away. I am going to have to get help at some point why not now! before I meltdown like afew months ago..I don't want to lose my job I don't........I'm rambling I'll stop. I'm so scared. I want to give up again and live in the blur I'm frightened.

I can't offer much help but I can say...

spanky_spee wrote:I promised Barry

That should be something to hold on. He does exist. There are people (in you) that will support you.