Freakin holidays... (triggers)

I hate this freakin season. I really do. But, my parents love it so we "celebrate it" for them but we freakin hate it. We saw another pot about this and it woke me up. My name is Magye... I am nine... I hate Christmas... We got violently raped twice by our freakin cousins during this season... The first time a girl and a guy cousin, the second time those cousins and another guy cousin... Then we got pregnant from that last rape. I hate this season. I don't mean to be angry but I just wanna feel better. One of our system members who is six months old saw somebody TRIGGER be murdered by the cult on Christmas day, her best friend... It's sickening and wrong. She is healed now but at first, she missed Sammi so much... Poor thing


Sorry to complain but we just needed an open page to share.

Magye.

i'm sorry christmas was so bad for you. *hugs if wanted!*
christmas isn't suposed to be bad for anyone. it's suposed to be about love and care and giving and happiness. i'm sorry this holiday and season was ruined for you. it's not suposed to be that way. maybe you can try to turn it into a happy time instead of a bad time? maybe you can do things you like and celebrate it in your own way somehow? even if you're still with your parents maybe you can do sumthing small to celebrate it in your own way and maybe you can still find ways to make happy memories to help replace the bad ones. it's always possible to make new, better memories and to make sumthing have good memories attached to it instead of only bad ones.

i hope you feel better soon.

-cassie

Hi Cassie, thank you...I'm trying to its difficult though, I'm sure you understand how things can be hugs to you guys, too I am trying, don't know what to do to make it non sad.

you could try listening to music that makes you happy! or watching movies that you like. or doing sumthing that you like. like going for a walk or coloring or writing or sumthing. and wear clothes that make you happy if you can! wear stuff you like that's comfy. you could try making a list of happy things too or things you're thankful for or sumthing to help you stay positive. you could try making stuff for yourself like cards for the younger parts or sumthing.

don't be afraid to do stuff you need to, too. like taking a nap or snuggling a stuffed animal buddy or squeezing a soft pillow or hiding in a nice soft blankie or sumthing. don't be afraid to do stuff that makes you feel better.



-cassie

Thank you, Cassie. Those are good ideas we got a stuffed elephant for Chsristmas and the littles have been huggin her stuffies make us feel good. You had some great ideas, thank u

I'm sorry things are so difficult. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to not like it - no one can tell you how to feel. I hope in time all part of you may heal. The holiday's are soon over. I hope you feel better then, if not now already Best of luck.

lifelongthing wrote:I'm sorry things are so difficult. It's okay to be sad, it's okay to not like it - no one can tell you how to feel. I hope in time all part of you may heal. The holiday's are soon over. I hope you feel better then, if not now already Best of luck.

Hey Emma, we are feeling a little bit better today thank you guys! Safe hugs, if wanted

That's great