depression tears me apart

Hi guys, I am coming from the Avpd side of the forums.
I am stuck in depression for some time (4 months i think). My whole life is horrible, I spend most of my time home. Currently I talk sometimes to an old friend on skype.
So I am pretty much friendless. I've had some serious suicidal thoughts a week ago.
My only motivator is that I want to finish high school and follow a medicine or a psychology school (i haven't decided yet).
For 4 months I haven't felt any pleasure, or pleasant feelings. I am not really sure if I still have emotions, because I don't FEEL THEM! I've lost interest in everything! My life is miserable!

Hi, viscereal! Are you on medication and/or going to therapy? You could try doing cardio a few times a week, it can help with depression a lot.

Hi, viscereal! Are you on medication and/or going to therapy?

Nope

You could try doing cardio a few times a week, it can help with depression a lot.

I used to run on a stadium when I, uhm.....used to have friends.
You have a good point, I really should do some exercise. I am like a freakin vegetable
Anyway I am feeling better now, much better

Could you try to find a therapist? You could explain things to your regular doctor and ask where to find someone.

How come you don't have friends anymore?

How come you don't have friends anymore?

I don't know I started to care less about my friendships and...people, in general.
And I lost connection.

Today I've just met an old friend in one of my lonely walks, we gathered some friends and we took some walks, like the old times. I feel exhausted right now

Ohhhh I see. Think you feel exhausted because you had too much contact with them?

Yes

It will pass Is there anything that cheers you up?

Probably no

Could you try to get some help?

I mean anything like watching comedies or pictures of kittens or spending time with a pet.